First thing I feel every morning is PAIN...pain..pain..pain...
but I still HOPE that one morning I'll wake up and that the pain will be gone...
it seams like yesterday when I was healthy, full of energy and enthusiasm and I just can't believe that is gone forever.. I can't and I won't accept this PAIN as a permanent condition in my life and I'll fight it with every atom of my body and mind...It's like a bad dream and I have to wake up.