What a funny week this is turning out to be! Following my 'Is it Friday yet?' blog yesterday, I had a nice email from my boss' boss, thanking and congratulating on a minor piece of work, which was very nice! Today, I get an email from my boss about something unpleasant that I thought was dead and buried.
Basically, in June 2011, I was told that someone (likely a colleague, under the circumstances) had made an anonymous complaint to our regulatory body about 'odd goings on' involving me. They've spent all this time investigating what the hell this complaint could relate to, roping my boss (and many bosses upwards in the chain) in to the investigation process, and forcing my boss to put me through 'capability counselling' - basically to see if I am incompetent.
Last month, I finally went through the last stage of this, with an external professional coming in and watching me do a specialist clinic, and saying that there was no issue with either my clinical skills, or professional knowledge. I had the letter from my boss saying that all hoops had been jumped through, and I was now officially competent, as even she had known in the first place.
Today, I get an email from her saying that the professional body have contacted her AGAIN with queries! I don't know if it's just tying up loose ends, but frankly, I pay these people over £70 a year, and have been pretty good at my job for 11 years now, without a blemish. I'm not saying I'm perfect - I'm human, for heaven's sake - but I don't expect to be investigated for over 12 months on the basis of an extremely vague, anonymous complaint, which I suspect was made by a member of the team who has been attempting to get me on a disciplinary since she started working here 8 years ago (and has nearly succeeded several times, just not to this extent). By this example, I could complain about anyone I took a dislike to, and ruin their career!
Maybe I'm overreacting, but I'm looking for other jobs, outside of my current profession - I may decide ultimately not to move (I may not have the skills to, either), but I feel disillusioned by everything that I used to believe in, and I think that the patients deserve more than I may have to offer them, once this place has finished trampling over my self-esteem.
Sorry to be such a moaner, folks - I'm not normally like this, and I'm sure it will pass. Gentle hugs to all. xx