Hi All, I havent written a blog for a while but have been on just having a quick look. I have been back to work for a month and half now and last week was my 1st week back at my full hours, by the time sunday came i was shattered and sunday was a wash out i did nothing. I am still in a lot of pain and so tired. Im off tomorrow and sat so looking forward to having a sleep in if possible tomorrow!!!!! My partner woke me up this morning and i asked him why???he had to tell me that i had work to go too!!!!!!
Today was a low day mood wise and i did end up in tears for a brief moment at lunch. I am trying with work but i am finding it so hard and just so fed up being in pain and being tired all the time. I do understand that it will take time to get used to it again as i was off for 4 months but i wasnt expecting it to bee this hard or have this effect on me. It could be because i am hard on myself and i am expecting too much from myself as i feel that i done it before so why cant i now?! Does that make sense? I already had to reduce my hours at work and now work 30hrs a week and really dont want to go down any further but i will cross that bridge if it happens and i may have too.
Sorry just needed to get that off my chest. Hope you are all well?