I've been pondering this a lot lately. I keep wanting to try new things but then I lose my confidence,it's driving me mad and also my daughter has mentioned it. She said to me the other day " if you don't try doing things how will you ever know?" I mean I thought I couldn't loose weight with fibro and I've lost not far off 4 stone. I didn't think I could go to the gym and now I'm doing 40 mins twice a week. Now I'm pondering getting back to work but I am so damn scared. Last weekend I drove too far with no breaks and ended up with the most horrendous migraine and then a panic attack. I'm not in a hurry to repeat that. Tomorrow I've booked in for a taster session at a dog grooming training school but now I'm thinking how the hell am I going to sit there for four hours let alone do all the training. Am I in cloud cuckoo land? I do really need to start working again,I used to have my own florist shop but that's when I got unwell with fibro and I'm so scared of going backwards. I adore dogs,I have 4 and I would love to work with them. I've just volunteered as a dog walker at my local rescue centre just once a week just to build up my confidence again in working for people without any major commitment. I walk my dogs fine now,this time last year I needed a walking stick or a mobility scooter but now I don't need either because of my weight loss. I still am in a lot of pain but I try to carry on until it floors me as happened at the weekend. I am guilty of trying to push myself too hard and then my body shuts down. Should I just cancel the dog grooming thing,let's face it would I realistically be able to do it? Is it fear that makes the pain worse or am I pushing myself too much? It's a 35 minute drive to the training school,I have to walk my dogs first,then drive there,it starts at ten goes on until mid afternoon then I've got to drive home again. I suppose I could try and go and if I feel too unwell I will have to come home but at least I will have tried. Have lost my confidence so much but hardly surprising really,guess a lot of us feel like that?
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