its 2.18 int he morning and i still can't sleep. i am aching like crazy from the waist down my wrists have been hurting and i am constantly dropping things. had to take mum down the hospital straight from the doctors Friday and spent the whole evening there now i am so tired and and feel so down. on top of all that had a big fall out with my son now i just down even want to talk to him anymore i just can't me dealing with all this. it makes me wonder is it me? am i the problem? i'm just so tired, i' dealing with mum, i'm trying to cope with my separation, health, and loss of job; i'm trying to keep my sons head above water and counsel him when he calls and is feeling down while at uni financially i feel as though i am starting to struggle, i'm finding it hard to keep the place tidy this week. i'm crying all the time i feel like a real basket case tonight. but i have to just keep telling myself that its going to be ok, the thing is family don't understand what we go through with this FMS and its even hard to tell them what it actually is. and i am tired of trying to explain it to them they can't even be bothered to go and find out what it is. Anyway as my husband use to say " in this world you paddle your own canoe"