I've had enough.

[DreamingHeathen]

I'm not one to moan, in fact I hate it but here goes absolutely nothing.

I am so freaking sick of everything being a godsdamned battle on a daily blinking basis...if it's not my health and working so freaking hard to keep up with my friends, family and lessons, if it's not the pain of moving, the exhaustion from not sleeping enough/sleeping too much/having broken sleep (I've not had a good nights sleep in 6 years.)

Now thanks to having CFS, Neuropathic Fibromyalgia and M.E. I have cognitive issues....so when it comes to actually wanting to apply myself intellectually I cannot come up with the goods because I have these wonderful brain issues that help me fail my freaking uni course.

I also suffer with depression which makes everything so much more enjoyable -__-

So now my health rules my life, my education is going down the pan and for what exactly?! I've just had enough. I'm 23, no career, no consistent education, alone and to be pretty blunt just freaking sick of it all.

I apologise if I've brought anyone down.

To everyone out there, I'm sorry you're suffering, I hope you have a better day.

[Twiglet]

Hey there

Your not on your own, we all feel like that sometimes.

We're all at different stages in life but where ever we maybe Fibro and its wonderful myriad of symptoms does its best to bu**er it up.

You dont ever have to apologise on here for saying how you feel, its the one place you can be sure no one will judge or make assumptions about you

I know when your really down( I suffer with depression too) nothing seems worth the effort and you cant really see the point..but really whats the alternative?

Nothing worth even thinking about!!

I dont know your exact situation but I really hope you have some good friends and family around you.

Can you get some help with your Uni work, one young lady on here has a teachers aide I think she said, that takes notes for her and helps her keep up.

If you need to talk anytime do feel free to PM me or just get it all out in a blog, theyre a pretty good bunch on here and each and everyone of us has felt just the way you do now.

Gentle hugs xx

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It's ok really you go for it and let it out we all know how you are feeling and we are all the same the only difference is we are all different ages i am 46 and i feel like you but to be 23 and have this is awful

as i have done my education,worked.been married x2 had 2x kids had 2x divorces you get the drift so it must be awfully hard to be so young and then there are people on here who are 20 years older than me who think of the things they have done and feel i am awfully young but the thing is we have all got fibro we all have same symptons and we have all got to make the most of whatw we can do and when we can do them , get on with doing them,

it is a horrible thing and takes over you but please try to see some posoitive aand tell your friends and family how you are feeling and how it is effecting you , you may be surprised at response, the thing is i have got it

i am living with it and i struggle to understand it so what chance have they got, so come on now lets get a smile back on your face and try to get a grip and try to do the best you can and dont forget your never alone on here love to you diddle x

[MissKittycat]

Sweetheart, firstly no need to apologise about bringing anyone down - it won't happen. We are all on here for similar reasons, and we all need to vent sometimes, and this is the best place to do it, as we all understand how you're feeling. We will support you as much as we can do - you are not alone ok?

What twiglet said about a teachers aide might be a good idea to look into - my cousins son has one, he has Aspergers, and it really helps him.

If you want to inbox me, please feel free, I'm here to listen ok? I have clinical depression and have been learning some CBT recently which seems to be helping.

Sending you much hugs x

[dinkydo]

Big hug to you sweetheart and great words of advice from the other people on here. This is a great site where you'll always be able to come along and share your feelings. A problem shared is a problem halved x

[jazher]

Hi there,

Dont you apologise for moaning, thats what we are here for hun.

It makes me feel better and we are all in similar boats and some people can actually give some excllent advice.

Hope you feel better soon hun take it easy.

kel xxx

[julie51]

hi- please don't feel as if you are all alone, your'e not as long as you can let off steam on here might make you feel just a little better, there's always someone to listen and respond-take care xxx

[DreamingHeathen]

I'm rather blown away by the responses....thank you all just for listening *sending hugs to each and every one of you * xxxx

[Goodienuff in reply to DreamingHeathen]

HI love, I am in this situation right now due to a flare up and being blocked at every step by doctors who really need to go to finishing school!!! I feel lousy too, and to be honest, your post has put things into prospective for me - since I am a 57 years old mum and Nannan to 3 kids.

I really feel for you love, at the age of 23, no-one should have to go through this, stick around and keep posting the good stuff and (especially) the bad stuff, it really does help, and thanx everyone xxx

[DreamingHeathen in reply to Goodienuff]

Hey Goodie, THANK YOU.... I've had whatever the hell is wrong with me for 6 years this August (so far it would appear it's a form of Neuropathic Fibromyalgia with Chronic Fatigue and M.E. properties....)....I guess without coming across as melodramatic, my life PRACTICALLY stopped at 18 when I got sick, I lost friends, my college course, my job, my social life, it all went out the window....And even at 23 the medical treatment I am receiving right now is diabolical....so to be honest...I guess I have a wobbly like this every few months....

I'd love to have kids... But I'm too sick to look after them... and I have the sneaking suspicion my ex partner left me because he started resenting me...because I'm so sick....(That was less than 2 months ago...so much for 5 years huh?)

Anywho that's a story for another day. Thank you so much for your support xxxxxxx