talk about an emotional rollercaster!! went out last night to support a friend doing a firewalk for charity, i was meeting her there but when i got there she was in a health saftey lecture so i went into pub on my own!!
havent done this for years, got really anxious as very busy and no where to sit and noone i knew. ended up having panic attack and having to get out as quick as i could!!
i arrived home 35 minutes after id left!! evry emotion then errupted, from anger and frustration to embarrasment and self pity/loathing!!
today im a mess, im exhauseted and hurt more than normal. im so down in the dumps, but most of all, im hating seeing myself in the mirror!! i know it sounds strange but i dont recognise what im seeing, its like im looking at a stranger......so down and fed up x