Morning peeps, i hope everybody is feeling at your own best today, its wet snd soggy out but the sun is poking out, so not all bad.
Aches and pains running amuck today, trying not to give into the temptation to curl up on tge sofa all morning.
Got an appointment with consultant tomorrow hopefully he'llsay its the fibro and not my arthritis in my shoulder thats causing the agony .
I had to finish work just over 7yrs ago as a senior carer. But lately I've been feeling restless and really want to find a job, but knowing i cant do want im trained to do.
I found an ad for a healthcare call coordinator, without realky thinking it though i filled in the on line application. I got a over the interveiw which lead to a face to face interview, all this in the space of 4days.
Then they asked for referees, which is being sorted.
Now on reflection im terrified, 7yrs is alongtime away from the workplace.
There is a huge element of IT skilks required which is going to be an issue and ive told them my IT skills aren't what they were. Iwill hace traning and a probationary period of 12 weeks, if im offered the job . It will be 6hrs on a sat and sunday. I thought 12hrs a wk would a way to ease back into work, learning new skills and still putting my care work into use without all the physical denands of working in a care home.
Since applying my head has been in overdrive, i cant shut it down, which has bought on the most awful headaches , the fog has been off the scale trying to hold a conversation with my sister was like ' give us a clue" bless her for her patience.
Im worried can i do this at 50yrs oldand more than 7yrs off work, then there'll be the retraining, what if i cant remember anything they teach me.
What about my esa and pip will i lose them, can i work 12hrs a week , how will that affect me? If i lose my pip then i lose my mobility car then i can't get to work anyway!
Is it worth all this stress , my partner doesn't think i can do it, he says im in denial about how ill i am , without all the drugs i wouldnt be able to function. But says if its what i want he'll support me. He hates to see me suffering , the cold weather is coming and i dont do at all well, i struggle to get up and dressed nevermind anything else. .
My head and body hurt, my hands are so painful i am struggling to type.
Please help, im so scared and confused right now 😵😵