Hard work but learnt a lot lately

[minesawhiskey]

Hi, I haven't posted on this site for quite a while. I have just been through a process since the 19th December 2016 (and may still be in a process) but I have reached a very good outcome for myself and in which case meaning a good outcome for others if you follow my logic. Yes, communication of illness is possible but as you have proven so is the opposite, health can obviously be communicated to each other too. Also, just to say what I've been through has been fascinating, interesting, out and out scary as hell, fun, boring and other things, however I am feeling I have learnt a lot from my recent experience. In brief and all I'm going to reveal for now or maybe ever is that I would call the process I have been through and keep doing is "reality bargaining". A big point here is that I couldn't have done this without the input of quite a few people (not always perceived by me as positive towards me but sometimes processing the perceived negative against you in new , original and interesting ways is useful but was difficult , hard work and at some times near death type experience but I've lived and come through it. Again with social anthropology concepts some of these ideas may mean nothing to some but quite possibly mean a lot to others. So, just to say I'm feeling fine and am trusting what I've been through will help me maintain this perspective for I don't know how long.

[bluebell99]

Hi minesawhiskey

Thank you for your post, you sound really chipper and that is a good place to be.

Perhaps you will tell us how you have managed this outlook, although I am aware, like you, that it might not suit everyone.

Long may it last for you!

Kay

[Trikki]

Hi....Sounds to me you are doing the right thing for you...well done.

[TheAuthor]

Hi minesawhiskey

I want to sincerely wish you continued success my friend, and please take care of yourself.

All my hopes and dreams for you

Ken

[Glosgran]

That sounds very cryptic and if you genuinely have something to share from which others are also likely to benefit, why are you being so secretive? Most of us are willing to try anything to be rid of our symptoms. Please be more forthcoming with the information.

[minesawhiskey in reply to Glosgran]

Hi,

It's difficult to explain but the process started with me having come off my meds with the permission of my doctor/psychiatrist. I started feeling/getting better for the next three months. Then on the 19th December I was walking down the street when a person stopped their car said they were concerned about me, rang the police and I was admitted to a specialist unit. I am not prepared to describe the process I went through whilst there, mostly because it was a very personal experience and it wouldn't make sense to another person who would I believe make meaning of the situation and process of their experience in the unit differently. I can say that I did a lot of new things there, interesting, fun, scary, boring, near death experience, etc etc and everything inbetween. If you read some books on shamanism then you may get a little of the process I have been through. What I can say though is that when I take any meds now whilst swallowing them etc I actually make my own spell which varies often depending on the context I am in or sometimes I just make a positive spell with words and/or body to make sure I have no harmful effects from anything I take. This concept can be applied to many many different circumstances such as eating food , smoking or sex! This is the basics of it. I'm back at home now and feel confident that my future will be pain free and enjoyable. In fact I'm fairly confident I'm going to be feeling amazing in the future. I hope so anyway. I hope this is enough information to get your own ideas going about how to perhaps know how it is possible to change your own emotions feelings and experiences. I read social anthropology at university and I know this subject has helped me a lot recently. For example, a concept from that subject is that "food can be seen to be nature disordered" this could be the starting point for all kinds of new thinking but as I've said I can make the most of this concept because of what I have studied.

[minesawhiskey in reply to minesawhiskey]

Actually, I've just got to get back to Sussex University at some moment in the not too distant future to remind myself why I might have actually studied the course in the first place. After Uni , work life took over, am just so glad that I just managed to remember enough of my course to get me through my recent process. I just need a little bit of a refresher of the subject fairly soon.