Today I feel really off, besides fatigue, sleep paralysis, dizziness, headache, back and neck pain, I'm feeling really depressed. I am financially broke, since unable to work a lot. By the time I paid my bills I have about $11 to last me two weeks. I suppose I have a husband but I never was one for asking people for money. It was always the other way around. Now that my health is suffered the tables have turned. I don't feel like I can really depend on anyone including my husband. He does his best, but the fact is he is stingy lol. Oh well, whatever. I guess I won't be making dinner if he doesn't buy groceries. My kids are young and live on their own and always seem to need financial help. Whatever food I have left over I do send them. My mother is asking me to buy her meds and I can't afford too either. They make me worry constantly. I feel so guilty I can't do more. See I'm a mess in every way possible.