Hi Just sitting down having a cup of tea. It is nice you have a friend, the older ones are usually the wisest. I had one in her 80's once, she was there through my dark days for me. I have had a good week, my legs seemed to improve. I cannot help wondering if it was not the new painkillers. I was told from my occupational therapist about not being able to be supplied free of charge with anything. Kevin still has his moon boot on, apparently his appointment was cancelled due to an emergency. You said that you once worked and raised a son, don't you think that was an achievement. Being a mother is hard enough, without health problems, nevermind with. I bet you are an amazing mother.
It must be a nightmare for you to get up and ready to go. I know I am always in pain and very stiff in the mornings when I get out of bed. I never have a good nights sleep. Normally I go to bed then, wake about 2. If I am lucky I can fall asleep again at 3 then awake about 5.30. I have come to accept that. Sometimes I have ten minutes in the afternoon in between my jobs. It makes be laugh, when people complain about the heat saying it kept them awake. I just think I wake up without heat.
I took Kevin back home today, so will be living alone until Thursday when I pick him up again. Although I have my daughters two kids on Tuesday, and of course Tesco delivery!
My son's wife is pregnant again, three months. She has cancer, and has got to go through chemotherapy. They have said that it will be ok, however it is worrying. I always tell people I have 4 grandchildren, 2 I see regularly, but the other 2 I don't see much. I sympathize with my daughter-in-law as she has cancer, but she is hard work. She has always distanced herself from the my family, and has not been in my house for over two years. When she talks to me in a business like manner, as if I was being interviewed. She has a two year old with my son, who I hardly see. She does not visit, and when I or my mam visit their house there is usually an atmosphere. Nevermind, I see my daughters two, and whenever, my son needs somebody to babysit his other daughter who is 13 now (from a previous relationship) he asks me.
I have now begun to accept things and to be happy with what I have not what I have not, even though hard at times,
Kevin got his money back, however, the bank never said how it happened.
I am trying to do some knitting to keep my fingers going. I cannot follow a pattern, I only do the same stitch until it is long enough for a scarf. If I manage five lines at one time it is an achievement for me. I thought if I started now, I could have two scarfs done in time for xmas for presents
My son has being moving office this week and I have been helping him by cleaning it. Strange but office cleaning is easier than houses. Also I get to see my son, without having to go to his house.
The people that want to stop benefits, seem to think everyone is the same. Programmes like the (Benefit Street) don't help. In fact I find it upsetting to watch, and find myself reaching for an inhaler, as my breathing gets fast when I watch it. You see I used to be without enough money to be able to pay bills or buy food, when I was on benefits. So, that programme only brings back bad memories for me. I remember frying flour and water up in the pan, I and living off that because we had no food. I also used to pawn things for food.
Now I consider myself rich, because I can live, buy food that is and pay my bills. I cannot afford holidays or nights out etc. but I don.t need them. My sister who normally has at least two holidays a year, sometimes a cruise may think my wages are poverty But to me it is an improvement.
Sorry it is late and I am tired, and I am probably typing rubbish.
You take care, and look after yourself.
Well I will go to bed and look at the ceiling again.