First I want to tell you that I kind of feel ashamed of how I feel. The thing is I am not sure that I do realize my condition! I keep thinking that maybe I am doing something wrong, maybe I need to try more, do more efforts... It is like I am trying to convince myself that it is me who is being weaker than everybody else. I can't bear letting people think that I am just a lazy, depressed young person. I don't have that courage. Maybe if I could just live better with myself and accept it, I wouldn't care much about others, but I don't, and at that point I realize that maybe I am more rude on myself than anyone else.
God bless you all,