I don't know what to do..
I'm currently undiagnosed as far as fibro is concerned.. But my mind is going..
My doctor suggested that my symptoms all point to fibro but I really think I'm mad.
I'm currently signed off with depression because I'm not really coping, going in circles trying to figure out if I'm ill or mental.
Basically I'm in the process of referrals and appointments. Maxilio facial consultant last wk, psychiatric review later this wk, rheumatology the wk after and awaiting an appointment with the sleep clinic.
My boss, I think, is being quite fair.. But she's asked me to really think about the reality of me going back to my job (I only started this role in feb this year so I don't feel they have any obligation in keeping me)
My boss basically said I need to make a decision..
If I quit and leave by my own choice, CAB said this may affect any benefits I could be entitled to.. But I feel if I wait until my boss dismisses me for being unfit to work, then I'm being difficult for financial reasons and I'm not like that.
If I am the 'good' person and make the decision to leave... Will I be the one losing out with the consequences?
I've always worked, I've worked very hard since I was old enough to get a job, I even worked all through my various college courses...
Will I be penalised for taking steps to try and get better?
Everyone says take it one day at a time.. But I find that very hard with all the pressure of my responsibilities...
I don't currently receive any benefits or financial support (except childcare element of working tax credits)
My partner earns an average wage (below £25,000 per year) we live in sussex so have high rent, council tax etc.
I'm scared. I don't want to put financial pressure on my partner, he works so hard and we've always divided outgoings and managed well enough with our two wages...
We have two kids, we aren't ever able to save, we've never been on holiday, we manage to just get by...
I know I'm not a fraud in any way but I feel if I ask for financial support and chose to leave my job for health reasons.. I'll be punished in some way.
Can anyone put things into perspective for me, offer advice..
I'm losing the plot 😩😩😩😩😩