feeling like ive had enough

feeling like ive had enough.not even my beloved dogs who are the only ones who show any concern for me . the thought of leaving my dogs without anyone to care for them doesn't really matter anymore

[gracesgrandma]

Hi anbuma please don't give up. I really do understand how you are feeling. Sometimes things just get too much. For me at the moment it is waiting 16 months for that damn brown envelope yo drop and ruin my life once again. Please find something even if it is a small thing that is good and hold on don't let this condition grind you down :o)

[Hidden in reply to gracesgrandma]

hi i am dreading that brown envelope too.each time one comes thru my letter box I dread that it is "the one".it is not always my conditions that get me down,i can cope with them most of the time.it has been when gps dont take me seriously and like yesterday when i have visible swelling on my forehead and non visible under my hair and facial bones feel painful to touch and are "lumpy" and i get told "i cant see /feel anything".have posted on another forum but no response.today is another beautiful sunny day bt cold.have to go Buster whining to go out.

[gracesgrandma in reply to Hidden]

Please do not get me started on Doctors. I had to end up writing to the Practise Manager after my last visit. I have only been twice in the last 4 years. As for the facial swellings I have something called Costens syndrome. It is the hardcore version of TMJ. I get lumps on my scalp, cheeks and above my eyebrows. The pain is so extreme I cannot bare it and it feels like each and every one of my teeth are going to fall out. There is nothing that helps. Good luck and I hope you had a lovely walk and helped to improve your day in some way xx

[gracesgrandma]

Doh I thought it was funny that no one had replied to a subject title like this. Note to self to check first if it is a duplicate message.

[Hidden]

hi gracesgrandma.atfirst whe i read your post htought what did oyu mean?thn ni relaised .dont know how it got duplicated

[Peace2014]

Life is like the weather sometimes it feels like its winter for so long and then spring arrives followed by summer and everything feels good again with fresh light. Life will get better take each day as it comes and try to build a little treat for yourself - could just be coffee with white powdered milk - that used to be my treat and I looked forward to it each day. Take care. Sending you loving hugs.

[Hidden in reply to Peace2014]

hi there.thats lovely what you said .being able to spend time in the garden does make one feel better as everything is coming up into bloom.i hate not being able to do much ,mowing the bit of lawn i have takes all day.spring and autumn are my favourite times of the year,dont like too hot summers-one reason i moved from south east to north east.i tend to stick to shrubs and bulbs now and have someone in to do any pruning thats needed.my eldets dog likes to lie in the garden -he regularly goes outside late in the evening and lie there-just as well i dont go to bed early.sometimes join him looking up at the stars.

[Peace2014]

I love my garden too. I have never cut the grass or the conifers but I love to potter around. I designed it years ago so it has lots of shrubs, seating and water features. I have two cats that love to sit with me on the decking. I still work so have lots of contact with the general public. I get a lot of support at work since 3 other staff have fibro so they are aware of my limits on an off day. I still do crafts, although I have had to modify my style to accommodate the fact that I get cramp if I work to long on a picture or card. My favourite place to be is my garden regardless of weather. Take care.