I've cooked our tea tonight. Something I hardly ever achieve any more. My stamina (forgotten what that feels like) totally went on holiday without me whilst doing so. I'm shaking and needed my husband and my two children to just help me sit down. I'm going to ask why, because some days I understand why and then some days I don't understand. How can I feel so heavy/stuck/drained/sapped.....ran out of words. I do totally feel exhausted. Everything is heavy, even my hands while I'm typing this. In my head my life is what it used to be and I'm superwoman. I sometimes feel like my old life hasn't caught up with my new one. Does anyone else feel like that? I'm 4 years in to being this way and sort of got it in my head how ill I am now and how much my life has had to change and then I have days when I think to myself why did my life have to change, why me? I know that sounds totally awful doesn't it? My family are so good with me. I do wish though that my whole body wouldn't seize up on me. A bit at a time would be nice (haha). My legs feel like stone and I just can't physically move. My brain is saying to my legs move, but they ain't listening.
Oh well. Rant over, I've been trying to type this up for an hour and have started to feel a little better now. Hope you are all well.
Gentle fibro hugs