Thank you all. It means a lot to me.

[sweetdreams1234]

Well as I wake this morning.. I'm Reading your posts and feel so blessed to have the support from you all.

I'm settled in my new home just fine but now and then I think what happened with us and when you need the special person in your life he's gone .

To make matters worse I mentioned in an earlier post that I manage an apartment building of 44units and he still lives on site as well.

My boss is very suppprtive and so are friends. I've not been able to tell my children as of yet but I'm going to muster up the strength to sit down with them after the easter long weekend.

They're kinda wondering why dinner with dad and I is not this year but I'm hoping they'll understand.

My tenants have been super suppprtive and they know how hard I work and say you're better off without Barb. Well that's it in a nutshell... Personal I believe there is someone else... But that's OK..I've noticed the hours he's been keeping in the last few months 2am to 3am on the weekends...a little fishy to me..but I don't have the energy to fight anymore for his attention.

Thank you all for your support and kind words..it means the world to me.

I'll keep you all posted and I'm sending huge hugs (gentle ones).🌠and I'm going to reach for the stars.I wish you all the strength and happiness in the world as we all plug along with this ..(fibro )family together.

Sweetdreams1234.

Barb.

[Ian123]

You are a star already there is no need reaching for more stars

[lou60]

Yes, agree with Ian xxx

[TheAuthor]

You are a wonderful and beautiful human being and I genuinely and sincerely want to wish you all the best of luck.

All my hopes and dreams for you

Ken x

[rosewine]

I am sure you will feel better when it is all out in the open and you have been able to tell your children. It is lovely to have the support of the people in the apartments this must make your day to day working life much easier.

Think of this as a start of a new chapter in your life. Kind thoughts weaving their way to you.x

[fenbadger]

I think you've hit your own nail on the head. That behaviour sounds suspicious, but whatever the truth, you're not helping your kids by dwelling on it. However hard it is, you're dealing with the now. More power to you. It looks like any effort fighting for his attention will be wasted. Think of the children's future now. It's hard for them too when the story comes out. Chocolate flavoured hugs for Easter

[Willow51]

Hi Barb, you will gain strength every day, and once you've had the talk with the family, difficult I know I've had that talk, things will start to look better. Take care of yourself and don't forget, things can only get better. Hugs Linda xx

[sweetdreams1234 in reply to Willow51]

Thanks Linda

I'm sure hoping that I can be more happy and peaceful for me.Honestly the only question I still have trouble with is Why???just because I'm not well.

I thought that's when your partner should stick by you.

I'll share a Short story. 4yrs ago my ex husband had a complete hip replacement and I took care of him and stayed by his side all the way through.. Even had my own hospital bed in his room and I never even thought for a second of ever leaving his side.2yrs later he had to have a second replacement after a car accident.. Again here We go I thought. But still never did I once think of ever leaving him in his time of need.1week later he got an infection and we lost him for one Night.. He went into shock and ended up with a blood clot ..two weeks later he recovered fully and home .was on blood thinners and I administered all injections and took care of him for 8mths .I even claimed unemployment to be by his side.???????What could make a person change that drastically??? He is 69..a bit of an age difference but he can do cart wheels around me now.perhaps that's it.

Well I'll stop my moaning and groaning thanks for listening

Sweetdreams1234. Barb.

[mimiwen]

Thinking of you very specially.

I hope something or someone much better is waiting in your future, to fill the gap left by your partner and bring you great happiness - every loss in our lives leaves space for something new.

Mim xxx

[sweetdreams1234]

Thank you so much .

It means a lot to me.

Wishing you all the best as well.

I agree with you.. Something has to change.& believe that it will in due time.

Big gentle hugs.

Sweetdreams1234.