hello fibro buddies,
at work last night I had an upsetting conversation with another member of staff; I walk to work as I don't drive and on my walk I rest at two benches on my route as I get out of breathe a lot lately and also helps keep me cool as I have to avoid sunshine.
anyway I arrived at work 15mins before my shift was due to begin so I offered my duty manager and supervisor a cuppa (I always do) and another member of staff said;
"o you bothered to turn up today then?"
I replied " who me? I had last week off as annual leave "
her; " don't know how you can phone In sick when you always look well, beyond me. you must be hamming it "
me; " I do not skive, when im too poorly to work I always phone in early as possible so cover can be found. my conditions are invisible, its not like you can see how im feeling. I always work hard and do my best to avoid absences"
she glared at me with her arms folded and huffed
me; " with all due respect I only need to answer to my superiors. "
her; " you've been sick for years, your conditions cant be that bad for you to work. one of them sounds like a breed of dog"
I held my breathe and counted to ten to stop me biting back.
me;" you know nothing about how my life is affected, I put on a brave face everyday and smile through the constant pain and ignorance of others. if you will excuse me ive work to do"
I smiled and walked away, fuming inside. I kept my voice low and calm.
I just wish people wouldn't judge me, they've no idea how much my life has changed. how ive become a weak and constantly poorly person who struggles to get through everyday so I can put food on the table and food in my kiddies tums. I hardly know this woman as she works mornings and me evenings yet she makes judgment on me. she didn't know me when I was well and worked 12 to 16 hour days there and was a supervisor and had bundles of energy . I work as hard as I can and come home totally drained and climb into bed at 9pm just so I can get up for work again the next day. I don't have a social life as I have to constantly rest so I can work.
she has influence on who works there and has an opinion on everyone, so there is no point in reporting the conversation to management. I will just do my best to avoid her, I will be polite (falsely polite) if our paths should cross again.
wish there was a pill she could take that would let her feel how we feel for 24 hours.........if only!
hugs to you all xx