Hi morning I am starting to stress , I have 3 phone calls to make ,one to clame ESA , one to the bank to release some money which I don't won't to do as it was suppose to be for my old age ! Which shouldn't be now but it is (52) I don't feel that in my head I still feel in my 20s but my body is 70 on a bad day I assume as that's the age group I keep up with now I have maxed out my credit card and to scared to check the bank I know I am lucky as I can rectifie the situation but if I had been fit I would be touching it yet and the third is CAB who changed my point meant to a phone call yesterday but they didn't call , also I had a letter from my employers telling a week last (sat ) that I had a meeting with employers to meet with my base manager and that the meeting may come to the conclusion that I would have my employment terminated now there is a huge part of me that says hey that's ok as I can't manage the job anyway and it makes me miserable and I feel like I have been put through the wringer every day and no I don't enjoy it . But there is a little bird sitting on my shoulder saying you have to work your lucky to have a job ! Hell how are you going to manage ? can you survive on benefits ,once I remove the money from my account I will have enough to claim I have been using my savings to survive this last 6 months , my store personal manager rang earlier and they won't me in tomorrow at 11.30 I am sick to my stomach I am trying to be ok but I am not what the hell am I going to do I am scared I don't scared where do I start ? I think I clean the kitchen, when I get anxious I clean but now due to my stupid body I can't work off my fear and pretend things arnt happening my body won't let me so I can't escape in my head I know there are links but is there anybody out there on these benefits ,? Is it really hard to manage what's the average you get a month to live off with these pip ,ESA ,and housing benifits am I in real trouble here will I lose my home . ??? See that's my head today wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
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