I think I'm a victim of my own stubborn stupidity. Feels like I've run out of options. On the 1 hand, lie to the people closest, lie to medics about the amount of support I have. I'm so scared of becoming totally unable to do anything for myself. Then I have no choice, total loss of personal privacy,. I need my own space, my own home, don't come too close, need help, go away, need help. Don't judge me, you don't really know, please see an independent worth and entitled respect, space. Only I'm not. I'm on oxygen, but it doesn't feel enough, breathing is getting tougher especially if I try to move about. You know the feeling, like you're about to get that hand on your shoulder, caught you, you're a fraud and under arrest. Your crime? You can't look after yourself. Sentenced to humiliating invasion of space for the rest of your life!! You have no secrets.