Things getting worse again, depression is taking over. I always said I didn't want to go back down this road. Too much pain, too much time alone, too pig headed to let on to loved family/friends! My gp, always so good to me. Obviously she knew I had a 'past' with mental health. She wants me to talk to psych. for meds advice. The problem between physical illness/psych. illness, for some reason I become a totally different person, probably 'imagining' things. Why don't they see it? Mental health does not preclude other illness, and as we know has the opposite effect. I wish I had kept my mouth shut! Can't take it back. Trapped now. Too much time, what do you do. Keep up the act, I'm a 'normal' human being whatever that may be, therefore warrant care and kindness and respect. Mention just 1 word out of place!!! I'm so angry with myself. I know better than this. Should do anyway. Lord above, give me strength. Maybe not, tempting to smash some plates or something, probably won't help my case!
Rant over. Sweet dreams peeps.