I am fed up with pain, fed up feeling so tired all the time, fed up with relying on other people for help. just really fed up with life at the moment. Things seem to be going from bad to worse. I am fed with being on my own, i have been thinking about finding someone, i have joined the take a break dating site, but its a nightmare. I have been a widow for 7yrs, i was married to my husband nearly 21yrs and before that to my ex 13 years. so that is 34 years of my life i have been with someone. I am scared to find someone else, i feel like i would be unfaithful to my late husband, added to that i would not know where to start with a new relationship and how some one would take me with my health problems. I really do not know what to do.