Hi everyone, I am new to this site. I have just finished loads of blood tests etc for lupus and they are all negative. I am now in limbo not knowing why I have been feeling so ill and in so much pain, the consultant has suggested I am depressed and or that the brain can alter things and cause things which made me think he thought I was just down but he also agreed I was not imagining it as he can see how ill etc I am but that he cannot diagnose what he thought 'Lupus' as my tests are all negative. That is all very well but now I have to go back to my GP and start again I suppose. I have been so very ill for at least 6 wks now, can't even hardly walk I do not work anymore but if I did I don't know what they put on a sick note then!!! I have heart disease (heart attack at 42, now 49)and am awaiting another bowel operation and have been ill on and off for the last 10 years at least so gave up work. So now I have been taken off the steroids which is good but in limbo as to what my diagnosis is etc, what do you tell people what is wrong with you if nobody seems to know, I feel like a fraud and a hyperchondriac without a diagnosis. Any comments very welcome please. I too have filled in an ESA form and sent it back 3 wks ago and heard nothing yet and that is also stressing me out.