Sorry for a long post. Feeling more than a little fragile, defeated and lost. We just heard from our clinic's counsellor as our PGT test results came back - our 1 embryo from our 2nd round is missing a chromosome and would not have been a viable pregnancy - and all they can say is it is sporadic and no known reason why it would occur.
In our first round we had 10 eggs and got 1 to blastocyst but not to biopsy stage.
This was our second round and from 17 eggs, we had 12 mature, 6 fertilize with PICSI and 3 got to blastocyst but then 2 were not able to be biopsied and started to degenerate. This was our only little fellow to get to biopsy and was a good-looking little 5AA. I was trying to be realistic that 1 might not be enough, but I was not-so-secretly holding onto hope that this was the 1, that we would join the "it only takes 1" brigade.
We are 42 and 51 so I feel battered by the constant chat about my age, as if I don't know I'm pushing my luck! have been TTC for 3 years and we had 2 MMC last year naturally - I have had a hysteroscopy, and my fibroids checked, made big lifestyle changes and lost 14kg, and my partner has given up smoking for over a year now too. We take all of the supplements and I have spent so much money and time on acupuncture and counselling.
We have been to the recurrent miscarriage unit at Tommy's and have a plan for steroids but I cannot get that far, to need to take them for a FET.
We changed our protocol from round 1 to round 2 to increase numbers and quality and added Zomacton (with Pergoveris and Fyremadel) and we had better numbers this time, but still just 1 blastocyst to test.
Partner has low morphology but good numbers and no further tests have been discussed for him, just having a good lifestyle and using PICSI.
We only have 1 round left of financing with Gaia, and I just can't get it out of my head that it might not be enough. That we might not be able to boost our chances enough to be successful given how much we have thrown at this.
I don't think I am ready to talk about donor eggs or sperm either, or can afford either and I am worried that might be the team's only suggestion now.
What would you ask at the follow-up as I cannot get past "wtaf?" and "help".
thanks all