Hello everyone,
I know this is something that many of you have encountered - and I often read about it on this group.
Last year I went through my first IVF, which failed. We took this route after many unsuccessful years of TTC. The IVF failure had a huge impact on me - I still don't feel recovered at all and think with horror of trying again and fail (we have a frozen embryo left).
I have recently started a new job, and on the first team meeting my boss (who's about the same age as me) announced that she's pregnant as a surrogate mother for some friends (she has her own child). She made jokes at how at this age they consider pregnant women "geriatric mothers", giving a few details about her upcoming maternity leave, unveiling the identity of the parents later on etc.
She doesn't know about my struggle with infertility and IVF and I didn't feel I had a relationship with her where I could explain my feelings.
However, as her pregnancy progresses, it seems that she speaks a lot about this now. I appreciate very much what she does for her friends and helping them start "their family", but it's also a hugely painful reminder of what I don't - and possibly never will - have.
I'm not sure how to bring this with her, I'm still in the very beginning stage of my new job and I can see that she really wants everyone to know about what she is doing - which I appreciate, but I struggle immensely.
Obviusly, there is no way of not attending the team meetings, as they aren't optional, but I wish I could just shut my ears. I can even feel how my face changes when she starts mentioning about it (and everyone asking questions, congratulating etc.) and I feel almost like starting crying instantly.
I know lots of people have been in similar situations, so I'd appreciate hugely if you can share how you dealt with it.
Take care!