Hi everyone, I was very good and waited as instructed for my OTD this morning before testing. A clear negative. Transfer 26th September. I’m 43 in a couple of weeks and a single woman trying for a baby. So no other half to support me. It’s taken around 10 months to get here, thousands of pounds down the train and have an exhausted and emotional body. I’m not sure which is the hardest part of the roller coaster. Good news is always followed by bad news. As you all know.
I have around 12-15 follicles (depends on who’s checking) 14 Amh, so for my age that’s pretty good! However. I had 12 eggs collected. 6 fertilised and 1 day 6 blastocyst graded 4BC. So nearly nothing from the collection! Once it was thawed, it apparently only just crossed the survival line. The poor little blast had pretty low chances to begin with.
I think I’m going to go do another collection asap but only one more time. Back to square one today, sperm procurement after ringing the clinic to tell them the bad news.
Not sure why I'm writing this all down, no questions, just something to help me get it all out of my head I suppose. It doesn’t help that it’s my mums heavenly birthday today, I thought the test date may have been a good omen.
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First official BFN 😔
