It's really end of the journey for me....

I was supposed to have FET transfer this morning but our last remaining embryo didn't thaw. I was half expecting it as the embryo was not the best grade but gosh, it still hurts. It feels like last 3 weeks me feeling so rubbish while on drugs were for nothing and I have nothing to transfer. That was also our last shot. It's hard to digest that it is really the end but also I think it's really time to focus on my own health and just appreciate that we were lucky enough to have my son.

Life is a bitch and my story also proves that you can't buy everything, I wish money could resolve it!

I wish you ladies best of luck and I really do hope you will have your long waited babies at the end xxx

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Do not be so hard on yourself - you have given it your all - allow yourself time to be sad and grieve Make sure you have plenty of support around you and keep talking to your OH Thinking of you and sending you a big hug

Janet

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Thank you Janet for your kind words ❤️

[Solly-44]

I’m so sorry, it really is shitty. I have no words of wisdom to offer, just sending love xx

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Thank you Solly. I follow your story and really hope you will get pregnant soon 😍😍

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I am so sorry to read this, definitely give yourself some time to grieve for what might have been, but hold your little one tight too, you have so much love to give I guess its just more for him xx

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Thanks Daisy for your kind words😍 yes, so much to give him but need to be careful so he won't be a one very spoiled child 😜

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Oh im so truly sorry to be reading this, this is really such a cruel world. Sending you so much love. Take time for you, cry hard and let it out. much love xxxx

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Thanks Sammy. For some very odd reason I feel like I have no emotions left. I didn't cry even once since yesterday. I either didn't process it yet or I build this protective shell around me.....not sure what's happening xx

[Chel91]

I'm so sorry hun. Sending you lots of love xx

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Thank you Chel xx

[XOXO13]

Big hugs to you ❤️

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Thank you ❤️

[Twiglet2]

Sending a big hug, it’s a brave decision to stop trying. Sending love for you and your family xx

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Thank you Twiglet. I do not feel brave at all, rather unsecure if that's the right decision. I feel sad that my son will not have a sibling but I hope he will have plenty of kind people around him in a future 🥰

[Twiglet2 in reply to Hidden]

Well he already has an amazing mum that did everything she could to have him in you 🤗 it’s because it’s so scary a decision to stop and difficult that you are so brave my lovely. I’m teetering on the edge of the perhaps making the same decision myself in the next few months and I hope I can be as brilliant as you of the time comes xx

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That's one of the nicest words of support I received in a while and just proves again how much support and understanding we do find on this forum 😍😍😍 thank you lovely.I hope you won't need to make this decision and you last FET cycle will bring you a baby xx

[Bomboncita]

Oh, I'm sorry to read this! I understand you; we take these hormone cocktails that make us feel like crap for 3 weeks and then it doesn't work. Having said that, take some time to look after yourself, do things that make you happy and who knows, things might look different in a couple of months. Hugs

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Thanks Bomboncita for your kind words. Much appreciated xxx

How are you coping?

[Bomboncita in reply to Hidden]

I'm ok, with ups and downs but ok. I'm waiting for the doctor to tell me to stop the progesterone, which should make me feel better, as it is getting uncomfortable to continue doing the pessaries knowing that it hasn'tworked. I have 3 frozen pronuclei left, so we will try those at the end of the summer, provided that they survive the thaw and develop into blastocysts. Let's see. And if that doesn't work, I'll probably take the donor route. Too much to process at the moment. But today, I just want to finish work, go home and sleep on the sofa. Disconnect from everything. Thanks for asking sweetie 🤗

[Hidden in reply to Bomboncita]

I know the feeling, so sorry that it didn't work this time. But like you said, you are still much in a game and hopefully 1 of them will work! Let's focus on that for now, and on your rest on a sofa 😘😘😘

[Hidden]

Oh that's terrible. This is my fear for our last remaining embryo....sorry this happened to you. Sending you hugs x

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I follow your journey Eb20 and I hope you will get your happy ending, I really do. Wish you all the best! xx And thank you ❤️

[Eternalwarrior]

Hello lovely, I am so sorry to hear this and I just want to send you a big hug ❤️ xxx

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Thank you so much ❤️

[butterfliez]

I’m so sorry this is so painful when you go through all the treatment & the embryo doesn’t make it , this happened to me a few years ago it’s just so devastating. I’m sorry that your final chance is over & send you strength xx

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Butterfliez, thank you for your kind words, it means a lot. I'm so sorry this and even more horrible events happened to you. I have no words to describe how upsetting it is. I hope you are doing good. Lots of love ❤️ 😍 xx