Anyone in the same position, feeling a bit meh.

[Boo718]

I’m just waiting for lady fairy to start my next fet and to be honest I just can’t be arsed 😂 it’s not that I’m negative, I’ve just been here soo many times before that I honestly feel ‘meh’ about the whole thing. I think I’m waiting for the bad news before we have even started. How can you want something soo much but be so pfft at the same time… and that’s before the hormones kick in 😂😂

I think I’m trying to save myself from the hard slap when it all goes to shit before I’ve even taken the first drug.

😂😂 any way hope u guys are all having a good day. Legs all shaved and ready for the next appointment. 😂😂

[Joeysjourney]

Hello lovely! I am about to start my next fresh cycle too and I actually don't even know how I feel anymore! Am I excited? Am I terrified? Am I hopeful? Am I pessimistic? Am I superman? Who knows! So totally get what you are saying! It's probably self protection mode on my part xx

[Millbanks]

Oh love, I know that feeling!I think it's totally normal and self preservation. Hang in there! x

[Joso_8283]

YEP! Feeling the same. Only round 3 but it's the final one and I'm sure it's going to be yet another failure, sometimes I wonder why I'm even bothering!! Cba with it all now - cba with the appointments, the no drinking at events, the weight gain, the heartbreak, the feeling like a failure, more heartbreak etc etc!

Obviously really want a family so much but our lifes have been on hold since the first attempt 4 years ago and I'm fed up of it now and really feel like I'm putting myself through all the shit again for yet another big fat no!

But yes, it's defo a coping mechanism - I bet loads of us do it - don't allow yourself to think of the possibilities - guess we subconsciously think it will reduce the heartbreak (it won't tho 😫🙄...cant wait for the hormones to kick my ass and turn me into a blubbering wreck again!!)

Sorry for appearing negative - I'm being, super healthy, good food, no booze, exercising etc etc put positive thoughts don't produce a baby - tried that and I reckon the pain is even worse when you truly believe its gona work - that's the reality of this crappy journey!

Guess sometimes it's good to know you're not the only one feeling 'meh' - sorry for hijacking!! X

[Redsequin]

OMG yes! I am like the poster child for "meh" right now. On my second ICSI cycle and it's a (very) long protocol and I feel like I have no faith in the process and am just kind of stumbling through my days with severe symptoms from the drugs and just trying to make it through! I think it's normal not to be all sunshine and roses. The important thing is you're looking after yourself and persevering with treatment. xxx

[Hoop123]

🙋🏻‍♀️ I could have written this myself! I just... Can't. CBA with the whole thing haha. I'm doing all the prep and all the things but I feel like an annoyed walking pill jar rattling away with all the meds and supplements and for who knows what result. Very meh indeed.

Heading into transfer 5 (tbc when) and gah. Maybe it's the lack of caffeine getting to me 😂😂😂 But TBH I'm also enjoying not getting totally worked up over it all right now. So maybe there is a good balance going on.

Good luck for your next steps everyone ❤️!