When will the universe give us a break (a rant)

[Krystal_43]

Well cycle 4 has failed. Disappointing egg collection (only 5!) but got two good 5 day blasts (3BB & 3BC+).

Took Pred from transfer (which was new - my nk biopsy results put my levels so high that they were in the 95th percentile).

But no implantation. 😿

And now, just as AF has arrived, we’ve tested positive for covid & are having to self isolate So will miss the big family xmas I’ve been looking forward to. I literally thought nothing could top cycle 2 failing just before last Xmas (in tier 3 lockdown). But I guess I was wrong. Ho ho ho.

I’m also terrified of having covid while I’m tapering off pred/have been immunosuppressed…. thought currently no symptoms. Fingers crossed it stays that way.

(Rant over!)

[Annjali]

I’m Sorry to hear this please take the time to heal.

I have private messaged you re NK at my clinic they recommended intralypid and blood thinners as well as steroid maybe you can look into this too?

[Hidden]

Ohhh hunny I'm so sorry for you. A thing I learned in this IVF journey...something worse can happen...you're never in a safe zone and I hate that I have to think at every possible scenario sooo I won't get taken by surprise. And I had many moments of "glory" in this past year. Stay strong and hope the Covid won't make things worse! Happy Christmas🎄☃️ ho ho ho

[Krystal_43 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks for the well wishes. Life is totally bonkers isn’t it. Hope you have a happy Xmas too. Xxxx

[Hidden in reply to Krystal_43]

Thanks! I enjoy each day and I'm grateful for what I have. Sometimes life isn't fair but there's nothing we can do about it...🥰🎄☃️

[Seren0119]

For very high NK cells my doctor had me on 25mg steroids and intralipids - might be worth speaking to a specialist about your NK protocol.

Hope you feel better soon ❤️

[Krystal_43 in reply to Seren0119]

Thanks. I was on 20mg of pred from transfer, but have read about other specialists who advocate 25mg midway through stims. Would you mind DMing me the name of your specialist.

[AuroraXen]

Oh Krystal. I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm so angry for you, and sad too. It just isn't fair that your Christmas plans have fallen through on top of everything. Hoping the immunosuppressants don't make you feel poorly darling. The more my own cycles fail, and the more I read of other people having the same, the angrier I get. I'm actually concerned at how angry all of this makes me feel 💔 Everyone on here would make the most amazing parents. We WANT this, with every fibre of our being. It just sucks. I'm pretty sure I'll be out tomorrow too (tested 8dp5dt and nothing, total BFN, so very much doubt it will have changed by day 11 day which will be tomorrow). xx

[Krystal_43 in reply to AuroraXen]

Aww no Aurora! I’ve been following your story and have been rooting for you. I’ll still keep my fingers crossed that things change and you get the Xmas miracle you deserve. How are you holding up? Xx

[AuroraXen in reply to Krystal_43]

Well yesterday (the morning following the test we did) was dire... sitting through a church service in floods of tears. Unsurprisingly the entire service was about miraculous pregnancy and the hope of expectation and waiting 😂 Every word was like a knife! My poor husband kept trying to hold my hand but the tears were just streaming. Thank Goodness for masks, basically pulled the damn thing over my eyes and hid 😂. Today I'm just a bit numb really. Of course deep down I'm secretly hoping against hope I'll be one of the miraculous few for whom the tests change... but I'm just feeling like this will never, ever happen for us 🤷 xx

[hoping2021]

Im so sorry it hasn’t worked and all the more harder at this time of the year. I hope you get to try again soon if that’s what you want… the ladies on this forum always have good advice on what to ask at the follow-up consultations after failed cycles. Xxx

[Rainbowbaby22]

Hi just wondering did you get a bfp? X