Hi fellow warriors! So I’m in complete shock. My third ivf cycle was going to start as soon as my first period came after my failed cycle in December. It had been 2 weeks since it was due and knowing that a cycle can be messed up after a failed cycle (plus my crippling fear to take a hpt as I’ve never had a bfp in the last 3 years) I didn’t bother taking one. Instead I’ve been planning for my FET and calling all the pharmacies to get a good price on meds! My clinic called me in for a scan to check what was going on and somehow I am pregnant!! Seeing the gestational sac and a little ball inside is so surreal (the doctor thinks I’m ~5 weeks so having another scan in 2 weeks time to check the heartbeat and growth) and I burst into tears during the scan.
We’ve been TTC for 3 years so I don’t think my heart can believe this might be happening. I’m feeling excited but very anxious and have my first beta on Monday. I know it’s early days and a lot can still happen but I’ve never even reached this stage before so I hope and pray it will continue! Also I’m in disbelief that it happened over Xmas/NY when I was gorging on cheese and god knows what else and guzzling wine and champagne 🤦🏽♀️
I truly thought it wouldn’t happen to me and was feeling very down this month at the thought of going into my third cycle and also finding out 2 close friends were pregnant. This journey is so so so unbelievably s*** and I can completely feel for those of you who are still waiting and have been through much worse than me. I pray we all get the successful pregnancies that we have been wishing for ❤️🤞🏽xxx