Infertility and Depression

[MJPT]

I recently got the results of my IVF……negative. I’m 40, with a very low AMH ( 0.70). At my egg retrieval they were able to get 3 eggs. 2 were mature and fertilized, creating grade A and grade B embryos. Both were transferred 3 days later. I wanted at least one to work, so badly.

My doctor told me that he doesn’t think I will ever respond any better than I did on this cycle. I probably couldn’t afford another cycle anyway. I have already paid for 2 unsuccessful IUIs.

I am so shattered. I’m not eating or sleeping. Today I plan to make an appointment with my doctor to discuss medicine for depression. If I didn’t have my husband I don’t think I would even have a desire to continue living. I’m feeling so helpless and hopeless. It’s so hard to let go, but also so easy to lose your grip when there is no hope to cling to.

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I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling like this. I've heard success stories of ladies having failed IVF cycles then falling pregnant naturally. Have you tried taking any supplements?

I too have low AMH levels for my age and I've been taking Ubiquinol, myo-inositol, dhea, cod liver oil, vitamin D3 and a prenatal and my AMH has increased!

I wish you all the best x

[Krystal_43]

I’m so sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I felt so low after my first cycle failed, I really couldn’t see a way through it - but I did. You may want to check if your clinic offers counselling sessions, as these can be really useful when processing the outcome of ivf. Xxxx

[katiehopeful81]

I’m so sorry you feel like this. Sadly I can relate. It is unrelenting and all encompassing. What makes is worse is that the process is so isolating. I am 41 nearly 42 and have been embryo banking using mild IVF. I did it to try and give myself the best chance over three cycles. Perhaps you could consider this? Take care of yourself. It’s a hard, lonely journey x big hugs

[JoyfulStar]

IVF is a tough journey and can the outcome can be devastating. So sorry to hear you are feeling so low. On a positive note you are getting some help from your GP. As someone else said, perhaps counselling as well may be of use to you.

I will have you in my thoughts and prayers 🙏🏾

[LuxFleur]

Hi, I just wanted to reply to tell you that you are not alone. This was me last year when I first started doing IVF. Don't listen to your effing doctor about that being the best you'll ever produce, I did better on my second cycle a year later at 42, and many women have that same experience. It's normal to feel depressed, and I was in as low a place as you describe. I'm doing better now though it's still hard. Just hang in there. Xxx