Hello everyone at Fertility Network, I am a member and have followed this ever so helpful forum and never posted anything since Dec'19 but thought I perhaps might introduce myself a little to start with. I am 41, my DH and I are in relationship since 2008 and married in 2016. We were quite late 'actively' starting to try to conceive as I have been on contraceptive pills for quite a long time (from 19 to 35 years of age), he was married when we met, we also moved a bit around UK and also other places to follow his jobs and took up couple of 'redevelopment projects' to settle down one of which is still ongoing overseas in Czech rep. where I originally come from, where we also lived for a few years prior 2015 and where I would spend quite significant time each year since then to take care of the construction works - that admittedly doesnt make things easier to get pregnant... We have been 'actively' trying to conceive for over 3 years now and sadly I have never been pregnant (never had a positive pregrancy test), had 4 fresh IVF cycles since 01/2019 which all resulted in BFN with the only embryo that was ever suitable to freeze currently waiting for my very last treatment I will have this year (first FET) if all being well. I have dimished ovarian reserve - first time evaluated in 2018 (38) with lower AMH around 5 pmol/l ie 0.7 ng/ml and raised FSH (18 IU/l) and LH (9 IU/l) levels when I was recommended to consider Donor Egg treatments but I definitely did not feel ready to take such step (also 3 years long waiting list and me getting older doesnt help...) and I have been trying with my own eggs until Nov last year. It can feel at times like being stuck at an unknown and lonely place where you have never expected yourself to find... Before 2018 I always believed we would become a family as soon as we could start trying 'properly' as it was just a matter time knowing that before that we were not really trying, were more focused on our jobs and reconstruction of our home and that then it was not really the right time to have a little one (felt almost irresponsible to bring her or him into an unsettled environment)... how wrong I really was about all that not knowing that I am actually already 'aging' and the first year of tests, checks and treatment really opened my eyes in terms of selfreflection and realisation of my clinical condition. Unfortunately and sadly our clinic is not really tayloring treatments specifically on a case to case basis but more applying the 'One Fits All' concepts which in bigger scheme of things becomes more frustrating as the time passes by and with each unsuccessful treatment it becomes more apparent that perhaps Donor Egg treatment really is our only chance for future which however I am not sure would still be a good idea knowing that I would be about 44 and my DH even 62 which is not ideal and seems to be a little too late for us to start our family then... About 2 - 3 months (another waiting list unfortunately) I am going to have my NK cells levels checked prior our first FET and last treatment to see if my endometrium is in a 'right' state and receptive enough for this last 'assisted' chance we have and in the meantime I am still hopeful for the greatest miracle of all coming to us naturally which was always what I was so much hoping for...
At times of more or less dispair throughout my relatively short infertility journey I found ever so helpful and up-lifting to read your personal stories with positive outcome here on this forum and see how genuinely supportive, undrestanding and lovely you ladies here are with each other for which I would sincerely like to thank you as I so relate to this overall struggle and have nothing but admiration for all those of you who have been bravely fighting your way through infertility which very sadly seems to be one of the biggest concerns of our 'modern' times and hurts us all, who are struggling to become a mum, so very much...
Thank you all for your honest support and advice and for sharing your own stories and experience as that really makes a difference in how we feel at the end of the day💗 Wish you all all the very best for future and that your precious dreams do finally come true...... Sending lots of positive vibes🥰 to you all. Take care xx
PS: sorry for this lenghty posting...😅
Thank You For All The Advice and Support
Huge anxiety going into final round
Thank you so much 💓and Goodbye
BIG thank you to our egg donor
