Despairing

[JenRoy]

I went for a day 1 cycle scan today. They only saw 4 follicles. I’ve had bloods and am waiting for the results as to whether they’ll let us proceed with this cycle.

I’m so devastated as I’ve never had a poor baseline scan before. It’s always been the thing that’s been consistently ok.

Our cycle last August failed. Two day 3 embryos transferred, BFN. None to freeze. Then our October cycle failed. Only one embryo which was transferred day 2.

And now we might not even be able to start this cycle! Each cycle has got worse and worse.

It feels like my fertility is nose diving and any hopes of success are slipping away month by month.

Do we give up? It feels like everything is telling us it’s not meant to be.

We’ve been looking into DE so maybe we should save our money and go this route. Although it will be a long hard road.

We have a 2yr old from our IVF cycle in 2018. We’re so lucky. But I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to accept only having one child. I know that sounds selfish with so many desperate for their first.

I’m usually pretty resilient and strong. But I feel utterly broken today 😢

[hifer]

Oh sorry to hear this. It’s a never ending rollercoaster this journey. There are a lot of people on here that have DE that will be able to advise you about investigative steps etc if you decide to go down that road. Fingers crossed for this round first though xx

[Lovemylion]

Hey JenRoy sorry to hear your feeling this way and the cycle not going as planned. Perhaps just see what the outcome of the bloods is and take it from there, maybe they can alter meds for a last minute change or something. Do your clinic have any suggestions? I'm with u and understand the want for another child....it's not selfish. We should be able to choose the size of our families like other people can, doesn't mean we aren't grateful for what we have. I'm afraid I don't know anything about donor eggs. I'm sure lots of ladies on here would share their experiences. You would have a better chance with donor but depends if you feel ready to make the jump. The good thing with donor egg is there isn't as much of a rush so perhaps just concentrate on this cycle and see if there is anything that can be done now or in a future cycle which could alter the outcome.

All the best xxx

[JenRoy in reply to Lovemylion]

Thanks 😘. They advised me to defer the cycle. They’re going to switch to a long protocol so I’m on the pill from today and then day 21 will start downreg. My Oestradiol was too high on day 1.

So gutting but I’m glad they checked and have adjusted things. Better than going ahead blindly (like my previous clinic would have) and wasting so much money, time and emotions.

It’s put a huge spanner in the works with my job but hopefully I can sort things. I’d taken 2 weeks off for the stim and EC for this cycle 🤦‍♀️xx

[Hidden in reply to JenRoy]

I started a new job two days before my egg collection (look longer to stim than expected) and had to take tons of time off on my first day - total nightmare. At least we know what our priority is x

[Lovemylion in reply to JenRoy]

Well that's good news that they have switched to a long protocol! Sounds like they're a lot more proactive than some clinics. Unfortunately work just has to take a backseat. It's a pain but at the end of the day this is your life and it's important. I've taken quite a bit of time off and messed work around a bit. I think....hope they understand 🤷🏼‍♀️ it is what it is. Good luck! Will be looking for your update!

Xxx

[JenRoy in reply to Lovemylion]

If only work could take a back seat 😫! I’m an ICU doctor in the middle of the Covid pandemic. Never been so busy 😣. It’s just rubbish timing 😞x

[Lovemylion in reply to JenRoy]

O I see, I do feel for you and admire u for what your doing! That is super unfortunate and yes terrible timing. I hope you can work around it. X