Sensitive/Emotional/Loss mentioned

[Klndmr]

Hey my lovely ladies. I haven’t been on the site for a while it’s been a hell of a year. Hope you are all well and happy ❤️❤️❤️

So after my last chemical in January after my FET I’ve decided to give myself a break (1 natural early miscarriage and 3 chemicals after IVF transfer). All was going really well. We’ve decide to buy a house, I didn’t even think of babies etc.

Long story short we come to the 29th of August. It was my dads 60th bday and I couldn’t go back home because of Covid and quarantine rules. Daddy celebrated an amazing 60th, went to bed and passed away 15 mins later with no health issue nothing.... Devastating as I wasn’t there and I didn’t see him for a year. I went home and spent some time with my mum and then returned to UK.

My period was late and I thought is all because of the stress and it turns out I got pregnant 3-4 weeks after dad passing. I was of course over the moon and I thought a miracle happened.

Happiness didn’t last long again. 4 days later started cramps and bleeding. I took myself to A&E and hcg was 66, progesterone very low. They’ve repeated the bloods last Tuesday and hcg went down to 26, progesterone 0.9.

I was meant to do a test today to make sure is all gone and guess what the line got darker again. Went in for bloods again and hcg has risen to 36 my body is playing cruel tricks on me. So need to go for a scan tomorrow and they are concerned it might be an ectopic.

Anyone been in such a situation? I’m so fed up, tired and stressed out.....

sending much love to you all ❤️❤️❤️

[FrancyItaly]

Hi hun! You know I thought about you few days ago! I am ever so sorry for your losses. I can’t even start to imagine how you must feel 💔 Life can be really cruel!

I hope your dad will send you an amazing gift very soon, you totally deserve it! Message me if you want to talk x

[Klndmr in reply to FrancyItaly]

Aww thank you hun ❤️❤️❤️ the things we have to go through omg I wish I could be a kid again and not think about any of these ❤️❤️❤️ but we are al strong women and we can pull ourselves out and carry on and that’s what we always do anyway! Sending much love your way ❤️❤️

[Militarywife7]

Oh sweetheart, I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. These ivf journeys are so incredibly hard, and your strength is so inspiring. I hope you get the news you deserve someday soon! ❤️ Xxx

[Klndmr in reply to Militarywife7]

One day I will 🥰 one way or another 🥰

Thank you! Hope you and Jasmine are feeling great and very happy! Sending much love and smiles your way xxx

[Hidden]

Oh lovely, there really aren’t any words that do what you have been through justice, I am just so so sorry. How are you still standing! What a terribly sad time

The only thing I can comment on is the HCG - I was told it wasn’t an exact science and could vary, but that doesn’t really explain the darkening line.

I wish I could see you in person and give you a huge hug, let us know how you get on xx

[Klndmr in reply to Hidden]

Awww I wish I could do the same, a hug right now is all we need isn’t it? Even the nurse in EPU said “I wish I could give you hug” haha

Hope you are doing well and yeah we are all strong and amazing and we deserve nothing but the best and one day we will get it! Sending much love and hugs your way hun xxx ❤️❤️❤️

[Frankie08]

i have not be in your situation. I have just had a BFN from my first ICSI cycle.

I just wanted to say i am so sorry to hear about your dad passing. And i pray and hope that tomorrow is good news for you xx

[Klndmr in reply to Frankie08]

Hey hun thank you and so sorry for your BFN. Our time will come as well so keep fighting ❤️ sending much love and positive vibes your way xx

[KiboXX]

I’m sorry this isn’t a happier post for you, I’ve often wondered how you’ve been getting on. I don’t have any words of wisdom, hoping someone can help you with some personal experience but just wanted to say I’m sorry about your dad and that you’re stuck in a stressful limbo. Sending big hugs your way lovely xxxx

[Klndmr in reply to KiboXX]

Thank you ever so much! I’m sure better tones are ahead and I can’t wait for them!

Congratulations on your baby too I’m very happy for you! Wishing you life full of health, joy and happiness! Sending much love and smiles your way xxx

[MissSaoPaulo]

I'm so sorry for all you've been through hon. Life is just too cruel sometimes. Sending you big hugs and hope the scan tomorrow is not bad news xxx

[Klndmr in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Thank you ever so much! I just want it all done so then I can carry on and make a new plan! I’m finally referred to the Recurrent miscarriage clinic so someone will finally look at things properly.

Hope you are doing well and having many happy days ❤️🥰🥰🥰 Sending love xx

[Duchess2018]

Sending you big hugs, love and light.Xx

[Klndmr in reply to Duchess2018]

Aww thanks hun! Same to you xx

[KriSho]

Hi Klndrm, I was actually thinking of you. So sorry to hear about your dad. I have no advice but just wanted to send you best wishes. This year has been a really hard one including myself 😟

[Klndmr in reply to KriSho]

Thank you ever so much hun! Yes, I can see you didn’t have the best year either... I’m sorry about that ❤️ but we will pull through if we are standby on our feet we will be keep fighting and at the end we will get nothing but the best and we will be very happy! Sending much love and hugs your way xxxx

[Egilbertpatt]

Oh I'm so sorry to hear all you've been through, you've had to endure so much. Your miracle will come I am sure of it...I can't offer any advice on an ectopic but look after yourself and take some time to heal from all your heartbreak. Sending you virtual hugs xx

[Hidden]

Oh klndmr I am so so sorry to read your post. It sounds like a very cruel situation to be in. When I had my anembryonic pregnancy I started with a really good strong number (over 50 is counted as pregnant), so high in fact that they were worried it might be ectopic. So, my thoughts are that ectopic is supposed to give really high numbers. I hope you get some answers soon. Could it be that the previous one has gone and this is actually a brand new pregnancy? Xxx

[Lots8788]

Oh hun I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and what's going on at the moment. Hope the scan goes OK today and provides some answers and something positive. Big hugs and here if you want to chat xxx 😘❤

[magda22]

Oh it's so rough. Im sending loads of love. We get through each heartbreak, even if it feels like we won't, step by step. Sending all power amd strength to you xxx

[CLDxxx]

So sorry for the loss of your dad Klndmr and sorry you now have this worry too. Such a tough time you’ve had already. I hope you’re taking care of yourself.

Sending lots of love and hugs to you. ❤️xxxx

[Lillilly]

I am so sorry for both your losses. I read your post and it caught my breath. My gosh, you've been through a really hard time and I can't imagine how fed up and pushed to the limits your heart must feel. Everybody's story on here is as unique as is their grief. But the one thing we do share is that the universe owes us mega. I hope that break comes soon for you. Sending you lots of love xxx

[jengi]

Awh so lovely to see an update from you, I just wish it was better news. You have been in my thoughts & I occasionally check your profile for updates. I hope your Daddy is looking over you. Wishing you luck & sending lots of strength for tomorrow Xx

[Cinderella5]

Awww sweets I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious dad!💔 And now for all that you're going through. You so dont deserve all of this strife, it's so cruel!😥 Thinking of you both, sending you lots of love and massive hugs.😘xxxx

[Angels2us]

So sorry for your loss , I loss my dad , I know how you must be feeling, you had a very hard time of it , it seems so in fair sometimes, when all we want is a baby to hold , but stay strong 💪 and have faith because it works for so many people, I think everyone on here are the strongest ladies I know, pain and the heart ache we go through and it’s so comforting to speak to others who know exactly what your going through . 😘😘

[Core]

Hi lovely, so sorry to hear about your Dad. It sounds like you have been on a right rollercoaster these past few days, praying for a miracle for you xx

[Sammy246]

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad and the miracle baby loss. Lifes so cruel. Wishing you luck and sending you lots of love and strength xx

[Kat_15]

So very sorry to hear about the loss of your dear Dad. Sending you the biggest hugs. And so sorry to hear what you’re going through now too. Thinking of you both and sending lots of love xxx

[Millbanks]

Hey lovely Rosie, sometimes the world is just so cruel. I'm so sorry to hear about your dad - my dad was diagnosed with cancer last year and it's just so heartbreaking. Sometimes I think that life on top of IVF is too much to bear, but you know, we all come through it - we're still here fighting, even through all our losses. I can understand how fed up you are, hopefully you'll get some answers soon. There must be a reason for this and some things you can do going forwards to help. Sending lots of love to you xxx

[TexasRose210]

You are a strong woman, praying for the best

[Rowly88]

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your dad and your baby. Its absolutely awful, sending you so much love and huge hugs during this very difficult time xxxxx