I seriously can’t believe that I’m writing this post on here. I’m a stage 3-4 endo sufferer. After 10 years of struggle , 9 ivfs🥵, 4 surgeries, 1 ectopic and an emergency life threatening surgery, miscarriages, I am here . I have had lost all hopes that I would ever be able to write this post on here so I had stopped posting on here but would just linger around and read the positive posts to keep myself going and off and on reply back to people whenever I felt I could .
I had a very stressful pregnancy so didn’t do any updates throughout the pregnancy. After falling pregnant I was spotting off and on and my progesterone fluctuating. So @10weeks i had some spotting for few days and cramping that scared the hell out of me and I went to my previous ivf consultant for a second opinion and he upped my progesterone.
PS: ladies progesterone is very important for women like us with previous history of endo and miscarriage.
At my 28week blood glucose, I tested positive for gestational diabetes and my blood pressure spiked to 140/90. I was monitored for next 3 days and put on insulin injections and medication for my blood pressure . And then onwards weekly hospital review for my blood pressure and 4times a day self prick blood sugar test. Then, at my 30 week scan they found that bp had spiked even higher. And on that day they admitted me and my heart sank that in this pandemic I would be in the hospital. But then I thought maybe they will control my bp and after a few days I will b able to go back home . But what was I thinking !😖
My blood pressure went haywire and they had put me on 2medications and after a week in hospital my blood bp went over the roof and so then 3 medications and thrice a day heartbeat monitoring and alternate day blood monitoring. But at 34 weeks my bloods started deteriorating. My consultant wanted to take my pregnancy to 37/38 weeks . But, that wasn’t meant to be. So after a month in hospital at 36 weeks my dr had to plan a c-section. And at 36 weeks my twins were born weighing 4 lbs each . I was so worried that my babies would need nicu. But, when they were born they didn’t need any support and they were straight given to us . But my preeclampsia went downhill again so had to be put on high dependency unit for 3 days and I was so poorly that I couldn’t even hold my babies let alone feeding . But I was so lucky that during this period they allowed my husband who was so scared to touch even normal baby , now had to hold these premies who looked like little monkey of 4lbs each . 😫😫
At day 4, I was shifted to post natal ward where my nightmare re-started as I had to leave my hubby and take my two babies with my sore stitched body and medications to b wheeled into a room with no one of my own to help. My hubby would come everyday and wait at the street below our room just to see a glimpse of his babies and me . I would cry in pain everytime I had to get out of bed and to hold my babies . But bless the midwives they were amazing . They taught me everything I know as I didn’t know much as all my antenatal classes got cancelled bcoz of corona.
So ladies please don’t loose hope . This is coming from a gurl who has lost all hopes. Sometimes it’s just a question of time. Love to all .
I joined this forum 5 years ago and on the way made some lovely friends for life . I would specially like to thank all the the ladies who some way or the other helped me cope up these dark and hopeless days . (They exactly know who they are). And kept sending me positive messages so that I could pick myself up. I quit my full time job in 2016 to try and focus on this journey and I would have gone absolutely mad hasn’t been these wonderful ladies in here .
“God gives u family whom u can’t choose . ( I didn’t have any family to support me at all neither from my husband’s side neither from my family apart from my parents). But blessed are people like me for whom god sends angels like these wonderful women on here .
And I also want to thank the wonderful administrators and Diane (who’s a nurse with many years of experience). She also has been always there to guide anyone and everyone .
PS: Sorry for the long post. X