Chemical? 😭 How do they start and what do I do next?

So this cycle really has been an emotional rollercoaster...sorry in advance for the long post but I have no experience of this !

Day 8..pencil thin positive on frer

Day 10.. slightly pinker then first test but light positive on frer

Day 11.. spotting turns into bleeding, red, mucusy (sorry tmi!) strong cramping, backache

Day 12. Light af flow, thinking its all over, full af symptoms

OTD.. strong positive on boots test and 1-2 weeks on clearblue.. using fmu..totally shocked.. spent the day on sofa resting, strong cramping and heavy af flow..clinic agreed to test hcg today

Im just so overwhelmed, Having seen such light lines on a frer and all the bleeding and cramping thats followed I had convinced myself I was out, when i saw the tests instead of being happy and screaming with joy i was just shocked and so so sad as I know bleeding this much is bad news.

To see those tests and not be able to rejoice has been so hard, I have waited 8 years to see a positive test thats definitley positive! And i feel I was robbed of the joy I had dreamt I would feel..

Seeing negatives would have closed the chapter for me this time, Im still cramping, heavily bleeding and its full on af type flow..

Im going to the clinic for a hcg but only the second one on tuesday will determine how and if this pregnancy is progressing..

Another few days of my heart in my mouth..

Any ideas on what I should expect ladies?

How does a chemical work? Will the hcg just be really low? Will i continue to bleed heavily?

Another two of the same brand tests today are have the same results as yesterday.. positives

will these get lighter?

Appreciate your knowledge right now as its my first experience of this and I just dont know what to expect anymore. My heart tells me its a chemical 😭

Thankyou for all your support x

[Twiglet2]

Sorry to hear what you are going through I have been in exactly your shoes and it’s a painful kind of limbo. If it’s a chemical you are right the HCG will be low and not doubling after 48hours and tests will fade to negative, some women can sometimes pass some painful clots. There are lots of ladies who do bleed and it’s not a chemical though but I understand why you feel it might be. The only 2 transfers I have seen positive tests I have been bleeding at the same time so never had that ‘hurray’ feeling! Once was a chemical and the 2nd one I’m currently 12+2 so in my experience it could go either way. Wishing you lots of luck 💐💜xx

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Thankyou so much for taking the time to reply.. its so so worrying, im just guarded right now and have told myself to take each days as it comes..

Hope ur pregnancy progresses well, did u bleed this time? Its reassuing to know you got to 12 weeks x its the cramping and red blood that have me so so worried 😭🙏🏼

[Twiglet2 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I bleed from 7dpt until 9weeks This time, mostly spotting but a few really heavy bleeds. It was to do with a blood clot where embryo had attached. There are quite a few reasons for bleeding but the HCG tests is really the only thing that can help in the first few weeks but is very scary and everything on hold. I completely get why you are guarded I was the exact same xx