This time last year I woke up on my birthday feeling totally down and not wanting to celebrate at all. We were about to start meds for our final round of IVF and I really didn’t have much hope of it working. I tried to stay positive but I always found events like birthdays incredibly hard to cope with.
This birthday I haven’t stopped crying for another reason. What a difference a year makes and I can’t believe I get to wake up to this smiley face every day. My little boy is 9 weeks old tomorrow and he has made the whole journey and everything we went through to have him 100% worth every tear and heartache.
I had a very difficult birth which resulted in me having a c-section with general anaesthetic and baby spending 5 days in the NICU because he didn’t breathe on his own for 11 mins and had sepsis. I wasn’t able to hold him or feed him during that time which was just awful so in so many ways he is our little miracle baby who was determined to come into this world.
I hope I don’t upset anyone with this post but a year really can change everything and those of you who are still fighting on and feel like things will never be good again please don’t give up. I never believed I would be one of the lucky ones but posts like this always gave me hope. Sending love to you all xx