I hope you are all able to enjoy the sunny weather while we still have it. I've been very up and down lately, but feeling scared today as I'm having a hysteroscopy and biopsy this afternoon.
My first IVF cycle 3 years ago left me with a uterine polyp. After much inaction by consultants I arranged referral myself through my GP and the polyp was removed and biospsied. At the same time I was coming to terms with DE being our only option, but felt positive enough to start things off with a Spanish clinic. Then my biopsy revealed abnormal cells and the need for treatment: 6 months mirena coil, biopsy, 6 months without coil, biopsy- before I could start DE treatment. Age almost 43. I was devastated. I managed to negotiate with the gynae that I could do 6 months, and if that biopsy was clear I could go ahead with DE and in the event of a successful pregnancy could have a final biopsy after delivery.
Fast forward, my post-treatment biopsy was clear, and I'm sitting in a departure lounge, ready to fly to Spain for a scan prior to transfer. Spain locked down, I went home, and we all know the story from there...
Now I've been called back for that 2nd biopsy and I just feel like they'll find more abnormal cells and I'll be set back again. With all of the delays I've had, I've lost some of the positivity I'd felt about DE, and aside from dreading the pain of the hysteroscopy/biopsy, I feel like the universe is continuing to conspire against me. I know I shouldn't catastrophise, but throughout this whole TTC experience, absolutely nothing has gone right, not one single thing. If anyone can send me a virtual hug for this afternoon, I'd really appreciate it! Xxx
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Sending you many many hugs. You are sooo strong after what you went trough. Poor poor thing you must have lived in pure agony. I pray that your results are clear and you can be off to spain soon (someone posted the otherday that it is possible to travel to spain again. All the best of luck and keep us updated. Keep your head up high ivf sister ❤️
Thank you so much! I think sometimes you just get used to everything being rubbish that it becomes the norm, then when you see people saying you've been through a lot, you think - hell yeah, I have! I've been following the Spain posts, so hoping I'll be able to get there soon... xx
Sorry you’ve gone through so much and such a hard journey of being so close. Hopefully you can start again summer? Don’t give up! You never know how close you are and 43 is not too old (I am 43 so probably biased 😂) Sending you a virtual hug 🌺✨ xx
Sending you a big hug! I know it’s soo hard during this time - the waiting etc - I just wanted to send you some positivity too - I’m 46yrs old and DE worked first time! I certainly wasn’t expecting that at all and I was stressed and not as fit as I had been in the past! So there is a light at the end of the tunnel - hang in there and your dream will come true! Xx
She was indeed! She was completely over it (having done 3 rounds) and her husband persuaded her to try once more and it worked!! You just never know xx
It was nasty - not gonna lie! They seemed a bit shocked at the carry on out of me. All female so not sure why. I remember one of the nurses from when I had the Mirena inserted and found it painful. She told me it was because I hadn't had children. Cheers love! I decided not to even start unpicking that one!
Ouch, such simple words can cause so much pain and anger! I do think there is something is the fact this our cervix hasnt been stretched but yes not the smack in the face that we need when in pain and suffering from infertility! I think the nurses/Drs that do hysteros everyday get a bit blase in what could be physically painful! However, you made it....another hurdle over lovely!!xx
Thank you! They only did the biopsy in the end - but 3 times. It was pretty nasty. It has made me wonder about how I will tolerate embryo transfer so I will discuss options for that with my consultant - thanks for thinking of it.
You have done so well! Best of luck with your next cycle! I am 42 and know how you are feeling.
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