Another ectopic 😭😭

[Cmc2020]

So girls after an excited couple of weeks finding out I am pregnant it was too good to be true I had a really ruff weekend with pain and heavy bleeding I called the hospital 5 times and wouldn’t see me because my bloods had doubled told me to take paracetamol and go for a sleep etc even though I have had a previous ectopic !!

Yesterday I went to EPU and demanded a scan and that’s when they found my baby on my left remaining tube 😭 I had to have emergency surgery because the pain was from the tube starting to rupture I am taking the hospital further I am not one to complain but I phoned triage 5 times over the weekend and was mistreated in so many ways ! I am so gutted because I know I can never have a baby naturally now but on the other had happy I won’t have to go through this again

Yesterday I was so ill with the GA was sick all day and still in hospital with low blood pressure

On the plus side I have 7 frozen embryos so the time I have healed and got my period I should be ready to have a transfer never give up girls and always trust your gut I knew something was wrong even tho I had different symptoms this time and it was totally different from my last ectopic

Love to all yous this is been the hardest journey of my life 2 ectopics and three miscarriages now no tubes but I am not giving up yet

I have attached a pic of my we embryo on my left tube 😭xx

[MumofaSpaniel]

CMC, I am so sorry to hear this. I cannot beginning to imagine the pain, physically or mentally. Take care and do what you need to do to heal, sending you lots of hugs xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to MumofaSpaniel]

Thanks so much 💕I really thought this time I would be ok till the bleeding and pain started it was hard to take in but I will get there I just can’t wait to start my Ivf now again once I get out of hospital I am just going to chill and heal all I done yesterday was cry today is a new day and feeling more positive xx

[MumofaSpaniel in reply to Cmc2020]

Cry, scream, do what you need to do, but I get the feeling you are in a good head space. Xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to MumofaSpaniel]

I defo feel a lot more positive today 😀once I am out this hospital I will feel even better lol how have you been anyway hopefully not long till the royal opens again 🤞🤞xx

[Sarah83ap]

Hello luvy!

I was here 7 weeks ago! It’s such a heartbreaking experience. I hope you are as ok as can be. How are you feeling physically? Wishing you a speedy recovery.

If you want to chat at all please PM me. I had a lovely lady offer that to me on here when I went through it and it really helped x

Good luck in the rest of your journey xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Sarah83ap]

It is really a hard time I have been through it before and it was hard my tube didn’t rupture this time but it was starting too i was 6 weeks the last time 9 weeks thanks hopefully I have a speedy recovery are you doing Ivf ?

And thanks I will pm you if I need to chat yesterday I was crying at everything it didn’t help I was getting jagged here there and everywhere because they couldn’t find Vanes or anything I have never had a problem with that it’s been very traumatic I will get there tho ☹️💕thanks for your lovely message if u want to chat too u can pm me sorry to hear about yours too xx

[Sarah83ap in reply to Cmc2020]

What you are saying is literally like for like. Mine was my second first one ruptured 10 years ago. Like you I cried all day and woke up the next day thinking I can’t let this beat me and I still have my womb and was finding hope in what I could still do and couldn’t wait to get back into IVF.

I can’t believe the hospital wouldn’t see you over the weekend. I totally understand their strain at the moment but with your history, it’s life threatening so just as dangerous as the virus for you. Assuming you went through it on your own too as they wouldn’t allow me to have anyone in the hospital and that was at the beginning of the outbreak.

Yes I’m definitely doing IVF. I was actually due to have a round when I found out I was pregnant (4 years of trying 2x failed IVF and never a natural until then )

my clinic called me last week saying I can start when I get my May Day 1 but I’m wondering if it’s to soon. Tried to call the EPU to see if 8weeks is ok to start. Have they given you any idea of when you can start IVF? Have you been through IVF before?

Xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Sarah83ap]

Sorry I just noticed I haven’t replied to this just seen it there I know I am really upset with the hospital because the pain got so much worse day by day least I am sorted now it’s very hard not having anyone to visit isn’t it hope your ok too

The surgeon told me after a month or so I will be able to start so the time my period comes I might be ready she said the clinics are opening again very soon so fingers crossed no I haven’t done ivf before just my egg collection then had to freeze all because of ohss then I was going to have my transfer and they had to cancel again because my lining was only 6.6mm or I would have had my transfer by now just my luck lol but they no my lining has got really thick with stim drugs so I am using them on a short protocol when I can start again ☺️xx

[LisaBeatrix1980]

I’m so sorry to hear that, it must have been so painful and traumatic and I really can’t say how sorry I am for you. But as you say 7 embryos is fantastic, I only have 2 on ice so 7 is a wonderful number and keeping everything crossed for your next cycle x

[Cmc2020 in reply to LisaBeatrix1980]

Thanks so much this was a natural pregnancy so I haven’t even had a transfer yet due to ohss so I am feeling very excited and hopeful one implants and good luck to you too they say you only need one keep my fingers crossed for you x

[LisaBeatrix1980 in reply to Cmc2020]

Oh wow, so even more upsetting for you I should imagine, that’s so tough I’m sorry. But you have a wonderful back up, In fact 7 wonderful back ups, and I hope that gives you some confidence and eases the pain a little x

[Cmc2020 in reply to LisaBeatrix1980]

I know thank you I am feeling positive and jus glad this is over and done with I will probs have up and down day’s xx

[Run4ever]

Gosh I am so so sorry. I’m not one for complaining either but i DEFINITELY WOULD! You have a history too!! So so sorry you must be heartbroken. I’m 4.5 weeks pregnant waiting for a viability scan (have been extremely “lucky” in that as i’m so high risk they are scanning me but i thought i would have to go private or fight for it) Ive had tummy pain since I found out on Sunday but it’s been mild and general in location but i have convinced myself it’s ectopic as i have a blocked tube and endo and adeno. You’re so strong and you will get through this. It must be so hard to come to terms knowing you won’t conceive naturally but like you said you will never have to go through this again. Just awful i’m so sorry. Phone their PALS dept too xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Run4ever]

Thank you hun and I am defo taking it further even the EPU called them as well to speak to who I spoke with they have been amazing but they are off at the weekends so had to deal with them

Such a nightmare but I will get there congrats on your pregnancy and I will keep everything crossed for you if u have any questions just ask I was high risk as well and twice it happened but both my tubes where a we bit damaged try and not think of ectopic I never Intill the symptoms started at 5 weeks spotting left niggles and then the pain and heavy bleeding started least they are seeing you early my bloods where doubling as well they never done that the last time it’s so scary but think positive 🤞🤞🤞I know it’s hard lol xxx

[Cinderella5]

Im so sorry to hear your news and that you have lost your last tube! Life is so incredibly unfair. Sending lots of hugs and a speedy physical recovery, I know the mind will take a lot longer to heal.xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Cinderella5]

I know thank you if I didn’t have an Ivf back up I probs wouldn’t be here it’s that that’s keeping me going I just need to hope for the best xx

[Twiglet2]

So sorry to hear that and so angry for you that the hospital didn’t listen to you!! Very dangerous and well done you for demanding the scan. You sound like you are being so strong and as positive as you can be in this heartbreaking situation and you are definitely doing the right thing taking it further at the hospital to help others in the future but also get the apology you deserve. I am thinking of you and wishing you a speedy recovery so you can get started with those 7 (7!! 😃) frozen embryos really soon 🤗 💕 xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Twiglet2]

Thank you so much I know I was defiantly let down at the weekend plus I had bloods last week two sets I asked for another set on the sat they said no because they doubled once Even tho I was spotting I am so angry with them all and it’s going down on writing if there doing it to me they will do it to lots more people that’s what’s more upsetting it was like they thought I was exaggerating but I wasn’t I didn’t want to bother AnE so just waiting till yesterday it is very dangerous bloods can double at the start then start to slow rise or drop etc this made me cry because my mum told me this morning I am the strongest person she’s ever met it means a lot and I know I will be starting the process of my FET soon the docs have said there good embryos so maybe they just need placed in the right place 😊💕xx

[Twiglet2 in reply to Cmc2020]

That’s shocking you really were let down sounds like a completely different service at the weekend too which it shouldn’t be 😢You defo sound very strong and your mum must be so proud! Amazing that the 7 are good quality too! And you are right the one real positive you can take from this awful experience (apart from the fact you are awesome!!) is that this will give you the confidence that your future positive is in the right place 🤗 xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Twiglet2]

You are actually bringing tears to my eyes all yous are so much good support my mum is proud I said to her I can’t go through all this again mum but she told me I can because I am strong and I did it’s just hard and scary because the last time her and my bf where there to say bye before surgery and no one is allowed in so it was just all too much yesterday today I am like a new woman 💪💕thanks so much for your kind words and positivity you are also amazing 😊xx

[Peanutchips]

I’m so sorry to hear. I can’t believe you were ignored by the hospital, esp as this has happened to you before. Every reason in the world to stay hopeful for IVF rounds when you’re ready. For now, make sure to look after yourself 💕

[Cmc2020 in reply to Peanutchips]

I know they are a nightmare they done it the last time too I new something wasn’t right and the same people would listen and nearly died I am putting it all in writing thanks for your message 💕💕

[Hidden]

Hi Cmc, I am so sorry to hear this. Sending you lots of healing vibes. Hope you take time to recover. Take care. Xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you 🥰xx

[ttcemmie]

So so so sorry to hear this. This is just not fair. Sending you lots of love and hugs. Thinking of you. x

[Cmc2020 in reply to ttcemmie]

Thank you I am just one of the unlucky one I will get there love and hugs back 😊x

[Nat246]

Same thing happened to me. It’s an awful experience and to have to go through the trauma twice is so unfair!

Sending best wishes xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Nat246]

I know it’s so bad isn’t it hopefully won’t need to go through it again everything else in there is healthy apparently which is reassuring thank you and sorry to here you went through it too it’s not easy ! Xx

[Nat246 in reply to Cmc2020]

Yes hopefully with IVF we can feel more confident next time won’t be ectopic (although it’s not guaranteed) xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Nat246]

Yeah defo and I know nothing is guaranteed I feel better I don’t have damaged tubes there’s a higher chance that’s where they go I am back home now chilling 🥰xx

[hifer]

So sorry to hear this. Wishing you a speedy recovery. You’ve had a really rough ride and yet you still remain positive. Well done you. You are an inspiration. Big hugs xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to hifer]

Thanks so much yous are all so nice I know I really have had a hard time of it I think if I never had frozen embryos there I would feel ten times worse I will get there though and not giving up 😊big hugs back to you too mrs xxx

[t_miller]

I’m am so sorry 😔 what a heartbreaking experience to go through and for a second time. Sending you lots of hugs and best wishes 💗

[Cmc2020 in reply to t_miller]

Thank you mrs it’s not easy but feeling positive 💪lots of hugs back too 💕this we app keeps me going yous are all very supportive 😊xx

[Core]

I am so sorry to hear this. You sound like such a strong woman and I am sure one of your Frosties will be your take home baby xxx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Core]

Thank you here’s hoping 🤞😊xxx

[Sweetie123]

This breaks my heart, I’m so sorry you have been through so much 😭

You are such an inspiration to so many to not give up. Wishing you all the luck in the world for your transfer xxx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Sweetie123]

Thank you soo much 💕xxx

[Mara84]

I'm so sorry for what you are going through... truly sorry.... just want to say take your time and don't feel you have to pull yourself together now.... I do hope in time you feel better. its so bloody unfair.... sending you lots of love... xx

[Cmc2020 in reply to Mara84]

Thanks very much for your kind words it has been tough I will get there though taking a day at a time it is unfair didn’t think i would be this unlucky I am sure one day I will have my rainbow baby and will all be worth the wait 🤞🤞lots of love back 😊xx

[Mara84 in reply to Cmc2020]

Awww I can’t wait for you to give us a good news and have your baby ❤️

[Cmc2020 in reply to Mara84]

Thank you honestly means a lot ❤️❤️