So I had hoped this month to be sharing the happy arrival of our ICSI baby. Sadly she died in January and was born asleep. We’re still waiting for her review and some answers as to what happened to her, we named her Niamh. We miss her terribly. I had severe pre-eclampsia and nearly died after a midwife and GP failed to spot the symptoms and diagnose me so that’s likely to be the cause. Going forward I have 40% chance of getting pre-eclampsia again unless I take aspirin which would half those chances but that’s still very high and any future pregnancy would be extremely high risk if I’m lucky enough to get pregnant again. Yes, it’s a lot.
We decided in February to put ourselves back on the waiting list for a FET thinking that by the time we got to the top of the list it would be up to us if we felt ready to go ahead and knowing that waiting for treatment is often the worst part. Of course COVID has also put an end to that plan! I came back on here today as I got an email about a post saying a clinic has reopened and it gives me such hope. I’ve really missed the support on here it always made me feel more hopeful. I’m not sure where I fit in now, infertility and stillbirth is a nightmarish combination to deal with and we seem to be in the minority!