OHSS got me mad!😭

[Sophie249]

Hey guys, so it’s been a while since I updated you all on my journey. Well I went in Saturday morning for a day 9 scan and was told I have loads of follicles but they just weren’t mature enough and to continue taking the stims until Tuesday (yesterday). So I had my scan yesterday and the doctor says to me that I now have 50 mature follicles at least each measuring between 20-25mm😱 and my ovaries have gotten so heavy and big they’ve kind of been pushed together to the front of my abdomen. No wonder I’m in so much pain!

They will proceed with the egg collection tomorrow morning and will keep an eye on me as they think what I have is OHSS (Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome) which can apparently be very dangerous. Because of that reason they have said that they will freeze all the embryos that are fertilised and wait for me to have my period and my body to return to normal before they do a FET. I wanted to cry! I have had two failed cycles in the last year, one fresh ET and one FET. I haven’t been dealing well with these injections and have been at breaking point emotionally and mentally. And to think that I was so close to coming to the end, to then have this all dragged out again makes me want to scream. It’s not fair.

Sorry for ranting but I’m just so exhausted, so upset, and so angry. But it’s all for the best I suppose.😔

[RhinoCat]

You are also FULL of the crazy drugs.

I read your post and what stood out to me was :

You have loads of potential eggs ✅

You will have FET transfers ✅

Your body is needing a rest ✅

You will need to take a rest ✅

Nothing worse.

Just a pause because your clinic are looking after you 😘😘🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐

Hopefully after egg collection you can have a dose of pain relief that works and a rest to recover heart, body and soul .

Your turn is coming .

Nearly there!

You can do it 😘💖💖💖💐💐💐

Hugs to your achey ovaries 😘

Rhinocat x 💐

[Sophie249 in reply to RhinoCat]

Your message was very calming and almost soothing. Thankyou for taking time out to reply it means alot🙏🏽💖 My DH is trying his best to understand my pain and be helpful but he simply can’t because A) he doesn’t have ovaries B) he hasn’t been injecting all these drugs for the past for weeks driving him nuts like I have!😩 but you’re right, my clinic are looking after me and putting my health and well-being first. They also feel like I’ll have more of a chance getting pregnant if I wait as well.

Thankyou Rhinocat ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[RhinoCat in reply to Sophie249]

Bless your 💓

It’s hard for the husbands, they actually have different brains which is probably a good thing. Can you imagine if both people were drug loaded, tired, crampy and emotional 😂🎉🎉🎉🎉

I had to have a frozen cycle after my EC because of a huge polyp but I felt soooooo much better on FET day compared to few days after egg collection . It’s a wonder they don’t do that for everyone .

It was also nice to have a pause and we went to a fancy hotel for a wee overnight and I had wine 😎🤗

You will defo be in a better physical position and although you don’t believe it, your mind will thank you for having a break from the intensity of all things.

😘

You know your plan now.

Try to relax as much as you can .

Be kind to yourself, this journey is tough.

You are doing the best you can 💓💓🤗🤗🤗💖💖💖💐💐💐💐💐😂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

[JoP32 in reply to RhinoCat]

Hi Sophie. I completely agree with everything RhinoCat has said. I know it feels like a punch in the guts being told you have to wait for a FET but it is probably a good thing. It’ll give you a break from the crazy drugs for a while and you’ll definitely be in a much better place mentally & emotionally after that break.

Again, echoing RhinoCat, be kind to yourself. Take the extra time to look after yourself and recover from the OHSS so you give your blasts the very best chance! And extra month or so to give those blasts the best chance possible is totally worth it in the long run!

Xxxx

[ttcemmie]

Oh my gosh! 50! You are doing very well physically to deal with all that. It must be very upsetting (and not fair) to hear that you won't be transferring straight away and freezing all, but this is definitely not a failed cycle. Sorry that it's getting dragged out when you just want this all to be over. I find the waiting the worst bit, so can completely understand how sh*t that is that you though you were in the throes of it and now have to wait for transfer. Lots of love xxxx

[Sophie249 in reply to ttcemmie]

Exactly, it’s totally sh*t to the point where I am close to giving up, but then I come on to here and read such inspirational posts from strong, brave women who have had a harder time than me and still remain positive, so it calms me.

Thankyou ❤️❤️

[Hidden]

Oh Sophie what a stressful rollercoaster - but what can amazing number - your poor ovaries need some time out!!! As RhinoCat says so much good stuff in there, with the number of potential good eggs! You may not have to go through all those stimulation drugs again with that many and FET is absolutely the right choice because you want your body to heal and those ovaries to reduce in size. My late onset OHSS was really horrible, I had to go to A&E at one point I could barely do anything with breathlessness and swelling and felt dreadful on top of morning sickness for the first 11 weeks so i appreciate it must be really really frustrating and stressful because you haven't reached transfer but you are not that far off now , good luck!!! And hope you heal soon X

[Sophie249 in reply to Hidden]

Aah no way?! See when I read about other women who’ve had OHSS and what they went through it does make it seem more sensible to wait for my body to recover. I’m glad you recovered well, and Thankyou 🙏🏽💖💖

[Hidden]

50 eggs!!! I got 22 eggs and I remember feeling so much pain, I am not sure I can imagine how you feel. Your ovaries are champs! You both deserve that rest.

Take that time to recover and come back stronger! Best wishes xxx

[Sophie249 in reply to Hidden]

Don’t even ask, I feel like I’m pregnant but not in a good pregnant way. I feel like an inflated balloon 😂 but I’m mentally a lot better now and have come to terms with it. Thankyou Alidees🙏🏽💖💖

[Hidden]

Hi, I really think it is for the best. I was in lots of pain after my procedure and told the doctors as I was worried it would stop me getting pregnant... they said to go for it and I didn’t get pregnant. A few months later I used an embryo from the same cycle and did get pregnant. Although I had a miscarriage, I am adamant that the reason I got pregnant was because my body was in a healthier place, so I think you should genuinely see it as a blessing that they are doing right by you and your body to give you the best chance for it to work. I’m having egg collection in a few weeks and if my body feels sore I am going to ask them to freeze as I know my body better than anyone else. Try to see them taking care of you as a good thing and giving you the best possible chance for it to work. X