Feeling upset today and starting to get worried about our 5th attempt

[Leigh2244]

I’m currently going through a FET cycle, my last fresh cycle got cancelled due to my lining being too thin. And I’m just getting myself upset can’t stop thinking what if this cycle gets cancelled again, what if the transfer is successful and it’s a BFN. Or if I do get a BFP will I have another miscarriage like I did at our first attempt. Don’t know how I’d cope having to go through another attempt (6th)?

I know I need to try and stop thinking about all of this and relax but it’s so so difficult. Anyone else go through this? X

[Jojo1812]

It's not really the same but thought I'd share my experience with u do u know ur not alone. I just had my 3rd BFN this week. Had 2 fresh cycles, 1 frozen. 1st fresh had 1 day 6 blastocyst transferred and 1 to freeze, 2nd fresh cycle had 2 day 3 embryos transfered and 2 froze, then 3rd cycle 2 of my day3 frosties transferred. We can have the last frosty transferred after my withdrawal bleed has been and then I have a next period, I can ring the clinic to arrange my next FET, but at the moment I'm thinking if I've had 5 embryos in total transferred then what r the actual chances of this one last frosty actually working!? I know it only takes one, but at the moment I feel what is the point, but I know deep down I need to do it because what if it actually does take and I do get my happy ever after. Its such an emotional rollercoaster, without all the extra hormones from meds too, I think we just need to take time to relax through it, which is easier said than done I know but we need to take time for ourselves, and our relationships because it can become a strain on them too. I feel quite lucky that it's actually brought myself and my husband closer and he communicates better with me now.

Sorry to ramble, but your not alone this forum is great for support I find. Hope this helps u a little xx

[Leigh2244 in reply to Jojo1812]

Thanks so much for the comments JoJo and you are not rambling it’s good to get it out sometimes

It’s so hard this journey with plenty of ups and downs ... but I do read a lot about how it only takes one so let’s hope this is your time.

I am normally really strong just every now and again I find it hard! Take care x

[Georgie17]

I feel exactly the same. I am currently on a FET attempt and this is my 7th. Im due to have my next scan to check lining on Monday and am so nervous already. How far into the FET process are you? We can keep each other going through it. What you're feeling is natural xx

[Leigh2244 in reply to Georgie17]

Hi Georgie, sorry to read you are in a similar boat to me ... it’s so so hard!

Wow 7th attempt ... feeling nervous too I have my lining checked on the 21st so only a few days behind you.

Let me know how you get on .. and yes let’s keep in touch x

[DianeArnold Partner Nurse Fertility Network UK]

Hi Leigh. Oh bless you! I can understand your fears, but remember your clinic want this to work for you too, so will be keeping an eye on you. Hopefully your womb lining is behaving this time. Thinking of you. Diane

[Leigh2244 in reply to DianeArnold]

Thanks Diane it’s means a lot to hear your kind words x

[Aqua17]

I went through similar. Missed Miscarriage at 12 weeks our 1st round the bfns to follow. Never having frozen embryos and running out money to jus keep going. Wish u all the best as I know how destroying this is and I find so hard to cope not able to have what you really want!.

[Leigh2244 in reply to Aqua17]

Hi Aqua, wow can’t believe how similar it’s been for us. Where are you now with everything? Wishing you all the best too x

[Aqua17 in reply to Leigh2244]

Today was OTD & a bfn!! Was 1st round actually got 2 blastocysts. Early testing showed bfp right up to today's so assuming I've had chemical miscarriage. Devasted. Unsure what else try and don't hold out much for that 2nd frozen blastocyst as same dna issue is likely I'm assuming!!

[Leigh2244 in reply to Aqua17]

Again sorry to hear the news. I had a chemical too in December which was so sad you see that BFP and then nothing.

Don’t lose hope on that second one though it doesn’t mean there is anything wrong. I think sometimes it’s just random and there is no rhyme or reason.

Try to not lose hope ..: we can’t and have to keep going. X