My first BFP ever followed by a chemical at 6.5 weeks

[gattonero]

Update: doctor confirmed I am still pregnant 🙀 We saw the sac and there is a heartbeat. I may have expelled the second embryo but one is stuck in there. He prescribed me to rest, some valium and gave me an additional shot of progesterone at the clinic. I have to come back on monday for another check.

We are speachless, after we spent the night crying and looking into California adoption laws ...

Thank you all for your support, it really meant a lot to me and you made me feel less lonely❤️

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Original post:

We had a DE transfer of two 3 days embies (10 and 8 cells) in late july, 2 weeks ago I had my first Bfp ever (this was our 4th ivf). These last 2 weeks I’ve been almost in denial and very cautious of dreaming too much (well aware of the risks of miscarriage in the first 3 months). I have been browsing for symptoms (I just had sore breasts and fatigue). i think I tried to be defensive in case of a chemical. And then it did arrive tonight. Red blood, period pains and clots.

Needless to say my hubby and I are in a very poor state now. My first scan was due in 2 days... I have emailed the doctor asking if she can visit me earlier.

We still have 2 frosties (3 days, 6 cells each). I feel hopeless. The next tentative could really be our last chance.

I didn’t even had the time to illude myself I was actually pregnant that I got kicked hard again.

[Debrakay1704]

I am so sorry to ready this. Xxx ❤️

[gattonero in reply to Debrakay1704]

Thanks so much hun, there’s still hope though, the doc confirmed my pregnancy with a sac and the heartbeat !!

[Tiddly1984]

Hi Gattonero,

I’m so sorry to hear about your loss and wish the process could have led to a happier outcome for you and your hubby. There’s very little that I feel I can say except to try to hold onto your dream and each other even when the odds don’t seem great. You’re going through a tough time but where there’s even a single odd, the possibility remains. You still have so much potential and people have become pregnant from much less advantaged positions so whilst you mourn please don’t despair. Take the time to feel better, then take hubby’s hand and march on. Things will get better and fingers crossed everything aligns for you....x

[gattonero in reply to Tiddly1984]

Hi bella, I read your words last night before trying to sleep and they gave me strenght, thank you a lot. You’re right, I still have 2 embryos I can try with. I was just a bit desperate and tired of this struggle. Also, seeing my hubby crying stroke me incredibly. However, I just came back from the doctor and he saw the sac and noted the heartbeat 🙀🙀

I’m still pregnant and I can’t believe it..!

[Tiddly1984 in reply to gattonero]

Wow...I’m so damn happy for you! Your baby is determined to meet you both. Really very pleased for you and just sorry you had to go through the scare. Come on little guy/girl!

[Dreamingofbaby]

So sorry to hear this. Can feel cruel at times Take good care of ur selves and let’s hope with other frosties that it could be it time next time ☘️🤞 big hugs xx

[gattonero in reply to Dreamingofbaby]

Thanks love, I really felt life was too cruel yesterday but luckily it was a false alarm..

I’ve just updated my post. It looks like I possibly miscarried one embryo while the other is still there and there’s an heartbeat .

Doctor prescribed me some valium. I really need it to calm the ** down!! What a rollercoster!

[Livinginhope2019]

So sorry, sending you big hugs xx

[gattonero in reply to Livinginhope2019]

Thank you hun, you’re very kind. Luckily it turned out I’m still pregnant..! I know it doesn’t sound real but we have a sac and a heartbeat. It’s possible i miscarried one embryo but the other stuck we can’t still believe.. after all the tears of the last hours before the doc appointment..

I hope you are enjoying these months before your next cycle in october, keep me posted xx

[Livinginhope2019 in reply to gattonero]

That is wonderful news, I’m so pleased for you. I bet it was an amazing feeling to hear the heartbeat.

I’m just organising myself as much as possible, as I’m having treatment in Spain and we are only over there for one week for the transfer (we were there 2 weeks in June) I’ve had More to arrange over here but I’ve got all my medication sorted, my 2 scans are booked and I’ve just a blood test for hormones to arrange but can’t do that as the doctors diary doesn’t go that far ahead yet. Just wish I could fast forward to the transfer 🤭

I’m really pleased for you, Take care of yourself, such fantastic news 😊 xx

[gattonero in reply to Livinginhope2019]

I totally relate to you ha! I feel that getting organised and well prep’d for the next cycle is key to manage some of the many things we are in control of. For the other ones we can’t control we have to trust the doctors and obviously have a bit of luck! I know that Spain has always been a breakthrough in fertility care. My hubby is Spanish and we often thought we should have gone there to try. However we live in California so it’s quite difficult (+ expensive) to arrange so we picked a clinic here.

Mucha Suerte señorita! I’ll be following you and thanks for your support xx

[Livinginhope2019 in reply to gattonero]

The waiting list in the UK for DE was over two years so as time isn’t on my side, I took it as a sign that as we have a timeshare in Spain and have been going 3 times a year that it was meant to be that we go to Spain. I’m a big believer in ‘signs’ 😊

Hope you have a lovely restful weekend, take care xxx

[Cinderella5]

Awww honey I'm so sorry! It's so devastating, even although we try not to get attached its inevitable. I really feel for you both as I know exactly how bad this feels. It may have been just bad luck that this happened but we recently found out my 2 losses were due to low progesterone, something to chat to the Dr about. Huge hugs, it's just not bloody fair!xxxx

[gattonero in reply to Cinderella5]

Cinderella, dear💕 thanks a lot for your reply and yes you may be right, it could have been a decrease in progesterone. You really know so many things!!

I just came out of the clinic and it looks like one embryo is still there with a heartbeat..! Doctor gave me a progesterone shot immediately in fact. He put me on bed rest and prescribed valium.

We’re in shock (this time positively). we’ve been crying all night after my bleeding, hubby was really sad, poor thing, but today it seems it’s not over yet.. unbelievable.

How is you? I hope you had a well deserved summer break after the Athens cycle 🧡

[Cinderella5 in reply to gattonero]

Awww I'm so over the moon for you both, amazing news! I can imagine what a tough night it's been!! I'm glad you're getting well looked after....look after each other!!

I'm doing ok thanks. Hopefully we'll get away to try again in Oct/Nov. We have a plan in place for progesterone so can only hope we get another BFP to try again!🤞🏻

Keep us posted with how you're doing, I've got everything crossed for you guys!xxxx

[gattonero in reply to Cinderella5]

PROGESTERONE MODE ON!!! Crossing my finger for you😍 yeah let’s keep in touch !!

[Cinderella5 in reply to gattonero]

Yes, let's do!!😘 You two got this!!💪🏻xx

[Orla9298]

Oh no, I’m so sorry... I know just how you will be feeling. I hope there is some miracle for you and it’s not over. Lots of love xxx

[gattonero in reply to Orla9298]

Orla, hun! I don’t know if to call it a miracle or if I really am meant to live infertility with totally polarised emotions but the embryo is still stuck in there🙀🙀 doctor just confirmed heartbeat. I’m so confused but more positive now.

How is your break going? I had 6 months break before starting this last cycle and was very good to help me focus on my life as a whole and not just according to my ability to conceive. I hope you are taking care of yourself the way you deserve.

A big hug xx

[Orla9298 in reply to gattonero]

This is just amazing news! You know... I just had a funny feeling for you which is why I said I hope for a miracle for you! Fingers crossed your miracle keeps hanging on, rest, Valium and extra progesterone sound like just what you need!!

My break has been ok... it took a long time for my body to return to normal cycle after our last loss so I’ve not felt like it’s been a total break... but I’m pleased we should hopefully get to try our first donor egg embryo next month! 🤞🏼🍀💕

[gattonero in reply to Orla9298]

Praying for ya! This DE embryos of ours do really must stick!! please please please 😛 i’ll follow your updates 💕

[Picalilli99]

I’m so sorry to hear this. Sending you and your partner love and healing at this shitty time. I don’t know what I can say other than I understand how utterly devastating it is to experience the loss after a bfp, especially after a long difficult journey. Take care of each other. You will feel better in time but try to just take each day one at a time ❤️ xx

[gattonero in reply to Picalilli99]

Thanks so much for your caring words, we luckily just found out that the embryo is still there!! We can’t believed what happened in the last 20 hours but at least there’s a positive outcome and that’s what matters after all!!

How are you hun?

[Picalilli99 in reply to gattonero]

Oh wow that is fantastic news!! Complete rollercoaster. Your little embryo must be a fighter. Got my fingers crossed for you that it keeps going getting stronger & stronger. I’m ok thanks. I am due to start another cycle next month after a long break. Feeling ready x

[gattonero in reply to Picalilli99]

I had a 6 month break before doing this last cycle and it really helped me refocusing many things of my life, first of all I started again to love myself and appreciate that I’m not in this world just to give birth, then I realised how lucky I am for other things (hubby, family even if miles far from me) we should never take for granted!! I slowly acknowledge I should be proud of my life. Then I went back to the battlefield stronger and I am sure the same is happening to you. You’re ready for the next challenge, we root for you here, hun! Keep us posted x

[Picalilli99 in reply to gattonero]

Thanks. Yes I agree those things are all so important! I felt I lost myself for a bit but having the break has helped me to focus on the other lovely things in my life and I’m definitely feeling stronger xxx

[Hidden]

That’s such fantastic news! I was going to message you earlier saying EXACTLY the same happened to my sister and she had a TERRIBLE heavy bleed - full on AF - and it was her losing one embryo and yet her second embryo- baby was fine and is now 11 months old.. anyway I didn’t want to sound like I was giving you false hope. Just logged back on and I am super excited and happy to hear it sounds like a similar situation and baby is fine - and relax xx

[gattonero in reply to Hidden]

Thanks so much Daisyyyyy💕💕 how are you doing?

[Hidden in reply to gattonero]

So happy for your news. I am soldiering on! Start round 4 soon, trying to channel positivity! x

[gattonero in reply to Hidden]

You got this!!! Xx

[Hollibob]

Sorry about the sadness, but fingers crossed this little one is a fighter x

[gattonero in reply to Hollibob]

Thank you 💕!

[Materialbarbie]

Amazing news about this little fighter! I have everything crossed for you it remains a sticky one🤞🏼❤️Xxxx

[gattonero in reply to Materialbarbie]

Thanks hun!! How is your little one doing? Xx

[Materialbarbie in reply to gattonero]

He’s doing good Hun, still cooking away in there for now! 32 weeks this week but I’m measuring way ahead, he’s really putting me through it but it’ll all be worth it! All the worry and pain will xxx

[gattonero in reply to Materialbarbie]

wooow, you're so close now xxx

[everhopeful83]

Wow wow wow, this is such good news 🤗💞 keeping everything crossed for you both 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼xxx

[gattonero in reply to everhopeful83]

You’re so kind, thank you! What week are you on? How is your pregnancy going?

[everhopeful83 in reply to gattonero]

Hi I’m now 7+2, still feels like a big dream! Viability scan for us on Thursday, feeling very nervous but just hoping & praying that all will be ok🤞🏼💞🤞🏼💞xxx

[gattonero in reply to everhopeful83]

keeping al my finger crossed for you!!! let me know how it goes xxx

[everhopeful83 in reply to gattonero]

Will Do thank you 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼xxx

[ama4]

How r u huni xx

[gattonero in reply to ama4]

Heyyy Ama! all good luckily, almost 15 weeks pg now. I had two bleeding episodes due to a subchorionic hematoma but it got luckily resolved by week 9!! How about you? Xx

[ama4]

Aw I'm so happy to hear that! I'm 15 weeks and 2 days. All good so far 💕 xxx

[gattonero]

omg, I'm so happy too for ya huni!! let's keep in touch via pm 💛💌