Feeling low

[Fluffysocks89]

Hello lovely ladies 💕

I’ve been feeling really low recently and I can’t seem to snap out of it!

I’m usually really positive and upbeat about our situation but all my thoughts and feelings have been really negative this week. I find myself getting angry at the smallest of things and being really snappy.

We are currently awaiting our teach appointment on how to administer the injections so we haven’t even started treatment yet.

I’m sure it’s just a phase and possibly some of the stress and anxiety coming out. Has anyone else felt like this?

[Hope25]

Hi Fluffysocks, just wanted to say your not on your own. I am new to this site and have only recently been started on medication with the next step being IVF but I have good days and bad days and bloody awful days!!! Sometimes I just don't recognise myself!! If you need to vent please feel free to message me

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to Hope25]

Thank you Hope25,

That’s really kind of you. It’s lovely to have someone to talk to that actually understands what you’re going through. It’s so hard sometimes.

Trying to think of something positive that happens each day to get myself back to being me!

Fingers crossed it’s our turn soon 💖 xx

[Hope25 in reply to Fluffysocks89]

To be honest the waves of emotions and the feeling of isolation is the reason I finally picked up the courage to sign up on here. I have been dealing with infertility for 3 years and had a diagnosis for a year and other then parents and OH no one else knows. It's so hard for my family to listen to my roller coaster of emotions and even though they are right behind me - this isn't their journey so they don't know what is happening emotionally/physically. I needed someone to turn to that's been there and understands what its like Plus it gives the family a break from my ranting ! lol

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to Hope25]

Hi Hope25, I’ve just seen your reply!

This is 100% me. There’s only my OH and my older sister that know about our journey.

I think it’s just hard at times. There’s so much waiting which leaves you plenty of time to overthink things too.

I’m feeling a little better this week. We’ve got our bloods this week and then our teach app next week. Starting to feel like we are actually getting somewhere.

Hope you’re doing well 😘 xxx

[Hope25 in reply to Fluffysocks89]

Just waiting to see if AF comes end of the month always okay until it gets here and then its like being hit with a wrecking ball Every month just thinking maybe its my turn I don't know how long I can stay on this bus journey - its pants and taking the scenic route. Keep thinking of getting off lol

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to Hope25]

I know that feeling all too well! Keeping my fingers crossed for you 😘 xx

[Apples2665]

I think it’s completely understandable to be feeling low at this point. I certainly was just before I started the medication. However, as soon as it started I felt the most positive I ever had. It genuinely was a positive experience but brings so much anguish at the same time. It’s a huge step you’re about to take and there are so many unknowns. For me that lack of control was terrifying. I almost backed out. I really hope you’ll feel better about it all soon but realise it’s completely healthy and normal to have ups and downs. With that said, I felt it was very cathartic to speak to a counsellor before starting so recommend you do that if you have the opportunity. Best of luck to you xx

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to Apples2665]

Thanks so much Apples2665, it’s good to know I’m not going completely crazy!

I think you’re right, I’m hoping I’ll feel better about it once we’ve started the injections and I’ll definitely look into seeing a counsellor xx

[hifer]

Yes definitely!! Perhaps in your case it might be a fear of the unknown with regards to your meds?! It feels daunting thinking about having to inject yourself and administer all your meds. I promise you though it’s not nearly as bad as you think it is. You will get the hang of it really quickly and your nurses and clinic will be on hand I’m sure if you need them or have any questions. I’ve just started round 2 yesterday and this morning I did my injections whilst making a cup of tea, coffee and a smoothie! You will be absolutely fine. One of the worst things about IVF (and I appreciate there are many) is the waiting. Once you have started a round, you at least feel like you are moving forward. Good luck xx

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to hifer]

Hi hifer,

I agree, it does all feel very daunting and the waiting game is so frustrating.

I’m glad to hear you’ve found it better than expected though. You’ve made me feel much more reassured that I can do this now!

Thank you for your reply and best of luck with round 2. Keeping my fingers crossed for you xx

[hifer in reply to Fluffysocks89]

You’ve totally got this, don’t worry xx

[Gem2410]

Hi, I can totally relate. I’ve been really positive all week. Then the last couple of days I’ve started feeling really negative about everything. I ended getting angry with my partner over something really silly. My emotions seem a bit all over the place at the minute. So I totally understand where you’re coming from. I think it’s normal to have these days 😊 xx

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to Gem2410]

Thanks Gem! I’ve been for a run tonight and I do feel a little better.

Hoping I snap out of it soon!! xx

[hannahding]

Hey, I can understand how you might be feeling. However, don't lose hope. It can be a little hard. Watch positive podcasts. That will really help you out. Good luck to you. Sending positive vibes your way.

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to hannahding]

Hi Hannah,

thank you for your advice, I’ll be sure to give it a go 😊 xx

[HowManyMiles]

Hi Fluffysocks, we have our consent forms and teach (i think) appointment next week, and I've woken up pretty low these past two mornings with my head full of what-might-go-wrong scenarios. I went for a run this morning to try and shake it off, which helped but still feeling a bit low, also thinking a counselling appointment might be a good option. Going to make sure I take it super gentle with myself this weekend and next week despite work demands. Hope you have a nurturing weekend and feel less low soon.

[Fluffysocks89 in reply to HowManyMiles]

Hi HowManyMiles,

That’s how I’ve been, just focusing on what could go wrong and what if it doesn’t work scenarios!

I enjoy running so I’ve taken your post as some motivation to get out tonight whilst we’ve got the nice weather and I do feel a little better for it!

Thank you so much 🙂 xxx

[AnnieAnnie]

I agree with what the others have said. The unknown is daunting but once you start, hopefully you will feel positive that you are taking steps to realise your dream. I was horrendous with injections before starting but after 3 cycles, I now wouldn't care if I had to inject myself for the rest of my life if it meant I could fall pregnant. The best way I found dealing with it all was going out for long walks and planning nice things during the whole process. I found popping out for lunch with friends took my mind off things, going to events and just trying to be me and do what I would normally do really helped. Good luck with your cycle xx

[Bridget_rose]

Hello!

I felt anxious before I started my first round too but I have to say it was way easier than I thought it might be. I agree with the others who say the waiting is always the hardest. And it never seems to end! I would recommend just keep focusing on the next little hurdle and don’t get overwhelmed by the bigger picture.

Another thing that really helped me was when one of my best friends said how amazing the science is and how lucky we are that it gives us this chance. Reminding myself of this amazing science and incredible process helps me anyway. 😃

I’ve got everything crossed that this journey is a positive one for you and makes your dreams come true. Xxx