Completely crashed

[SunnyDream]

During last weeks I've been thinking a lot. I can't understand why God gives a baby to those who don't need it but not to those who are dreaming of? I can't find an answer. My bfp turned out to bfn today(((((((((((( I felt my LO inside and now I feel only emptiness... Don't know how not to lose my heart this time. Trying to keep myself strong as there still one more option left but I wanted to carry my baby by myself so I can't even imagine how I can allow doing this to another woman...

[kirstie93]

Keep strong, your not alone.. It’s not an easy journey.. 💔 I’ve had 2 failed ivfs using donor eggs, my 3rd attempt I got pregnant and lost my baby due to silent miscarriage at 9 weeks 2 days and got baby surgically removed last Thursday 💔😢😭 it’s a very cruel world.. people dunno how lucky they are 😢 xx

[Seha04 in reply to kirstie93]

I’m so sorry :-(. It must have been really hard. You found out about your silent miscarriage during your doc’s appt?

[kirstie93 in reply to Seha04]

Yeah I went to the early pregnancy clinic to check everything was ok, previously I had went private before that and seen the heartbeat 💔

[Hidden]

Really sorry for your loss so heartbreaking. I had a loss nearly 2 years ago & the sense of loss is unimaginable. I know there are no words that will bring you comfort but I’m thinking of you & hope you have plenty of support around you xxx

[Seha04]

I’m so sorry, I was rooting for u to succeed! I also had the fate :-(. Yeah, that is always the case, people who do not want them can easier have them. Are you just bleeding right now?

[SunnyDream]

Hello dear girls. Thank you for your support. I know that everything will be alright just time needed. I have some bleeding but hope it will stop soon.

[Nodds]

I’m so sorry to hear about what you’ve experienced. You’re definitely not alone in feeling the way you do; I’ve felt similar.

The only way I can cope with it is I think ‘...why not me?’.

I’m blessed with friends, family, love, security and a wonderful husband. There are people out there who don’t have this; I’d hate for them to have to go through the fertility journey alone. Perhaps those who have been blessed with children ‘need’ to have them to make their lives better?

Everyone faces challenges and it just happens that fertility is ours. Those who easily have children will face another challenge in life from which they need to learn.

You’re stronger than you think, and you can get through this. Promise.xx

[SunnyDream]

Thank you Nodds, great words! I know that we are strong enough to go through this, especially if we have support around. So, yes, a little break and continue moving ahead! God bless us baby dust to all of us!

[Hidden]

I am so very sorry to hear your news SunnyDream you are a strong person and I hope u start to heal soon, take the time to grieve after your loss and seek support from your family and all us ladies on here who understand how u r feeling. It is a tough journey but u will start to feel better and can then look ahead to ur next steps. Thinking about u at this tough time xxx

[SunnyDream]

Hi Coral. Everything almost came to normal. I hope... I emailed BTC and they are ready to start our surrogacy journey in August.

[SunnyDream]

We will sign another contract and start looking for surrogate and donor.