I can’t face getting out of bed today... tests getting lighter now and can’t stop crying. And have to go and collect my hubby from hospital but the house is a mess and I can’t face doing anything about it.
5 rounds of ivf and nowhere close. Two natural chemicals and one ivf chemical. Hcg gets to 90 then fails. Miscarriage clinic says nothing is wrong with me so why does nothing stick 😭😭😭
So sorry Orla,
I’ve had an early miscarriage at 7 weeks and 2 chemicals from the first 2 rounds of IVF. I know how rubbish it is and to not know why it’s hapoening, you lose all hope.
Try not to worry about your house work etc, that can wait.
Let yourself grieve however you need to. It’s such a hard journey but it will make you stronger.
Sending love your way 😘 xxx
Sending big hugs your way 💖 .... Xx
I am so so sorry hunny ..life is just not fair and is this stupid game there are no answers..cry get angry and let it all out ..we here for you and know and feel your pain xxxx
Hi Orla. My heart breaks for you. I’ve had two early miscarriages, one missed miscarriage and and ectopic. Just had a recent failed ivf too. It’s such a horrible place for us to be in. I just want to say I am thinking of you xxx
Awww Im so sorry Orla! Life is so bloody cruel! I know that you have used steriods this time....has you consultant mentioned trying intralipids? Or is it maybe egg quality has something to do with it? Just a couple of things to mention to the consultant. I saw a few girls recently said that they had been told that although the embryos look ok, there is often something not quite right with a good percentage of them and can failed pregnancies.
Sod the housework, it can wait....Im sure its not that bad! Just you go and get hubby and have lots of cuddles and cry as much as you need to! Lots of love & hugs.xxxx
Have never discussed intralipids, no. It’s just so frustrating as I could feel them implanting and everything 😭
I’ve just had the embryology summary report and after thaw they were both classed as BB hatching blastocysts. Surely that’s not that bad 😭
We have 3 more rubbish embryos to try... they were all very poor and slow. Only early blasts by day 6. I guess we try all 3 of them if they all survive thaw.
I would do another round but my husband made the worst face at even the thought of it... don’t know what he expects me to do, I can’t give up xx
Im the same Orla, I just feel that I cant give up yet! My hubby said after last transfer was that he'd had enough but I can feel him slowly coming around. Hopefully both or our hubbys just need time.
Your embryos really dont sound bad at all, I had a fully hatched blastocyst and a hatching blastocyst AA quality last time (DE) and nothing. I cant remember who put the post on but it was recent, that her consultant said as much as 50% of embryos may be chromosomally not ok, but they look fine under the microscope. Its just one bloody cruel lottery game that we are playing, or at least in my head that's how it feels to me! Rest up honey and look after yourselves!xx
First I want to say big hugs, I feel your pain, I have lost three pregnancies in the last year. Two of those in the last four months, the last one I just had a d and c for nine days ago. I am running out of time (age) and fast losing hope. I think that’s the worst thing, that feeling that there is no hope, when times get like this it helps that my SO has hope for us both and is so sure it will happen, it makes such a difference to how I feel when he is so optimistic it becomes hard not to believe him he is so sure! There are times too when the constant losses have not been good for our relationship but we plug along and I hope u have that support because it makes such a difference.
I also wanted to share this with you also about low grade blasts...I read something interesting about blasts that were not considered good. It was around a lady who had a certain amount of eggs and those where all she had and couldn’t possibly get more ( I can’t remember why early menopause or cancer treatment , one of those ) round after round failed and she had one egg left that was considered not good enough but she begged them to transfer and the egg corrected and was the one that stuck! They were talking about doing more research about the chances that egggs can correct, will see if I can find a link.
Sorry for your pain Orla, I know how you feel. I don’t have any answers I’m afraid but I’m sure you’ll both figure out what is right for you with time x
Oh Orla I'm so sorry. You've had so much to deal with. The house won't be anywhere near as bad as you think it is, so don't spend another moment thinking about that. Is there someone who could go with you to collect dh? I wish I could say something to make you feel better, but I know nothing will right now. You do still have the other frosties, so don't give up on them, even if they didn't seem that promising. Take good Care ymof yourself. Xxx
I’m so so sorry . Please don’t bother about anything . Just let ur body and heart do what it wants to . It’s d hardest thing in our life.
Sending u hugs and love
Hi just wanted to send hugs, I havent been through IVF but have had 2 miscarriages recently I feel emotionally wrecked so I cant imagine the pain your suffering. Stay strong xx
So sorry to hear this Orla. It's so heartbreaking. Thinking of you.xx
There is nothing anyone can say that will help and it is so unfair. You just need to focus on whatever your body needs right now. If you feel you need a day inside and to cry lots, do it. You shouldn't carry on as normal and hold everything in, it all comes out eventually. Sending you best wishes xx
This is such a horrid horrid journey. 😢Breaks my heart reading this. I'm so so sorry Orla. For what your going through. Concentrate on you and hubby and everything else can wait. Bless ya hun. Sending you lots of love and hugs. I wish I could make everything OK for you. So sorry my love 😘😘💝💝
Loads of love and support Orla, thinking of you and sending strength xx
Thinking of you xxx
Thinking of you xx
So sorry to read this. This journey is so difficult. Lots of love to you and your hubby. Look after each other xxx
So sorry to read this. Have they given you any suggestions at all? Sometimes it can be something as simple as you need a baby aspirin each day but they need to do blood tests to find out. Also, NK testing may help as Cinderella5 suggested above. Wishing you lots of love and strength xxx
This process can feel so soul-destroying at times. My heart goes out to you xxx
So sorry for your loss, how you’re feeling is completely reasonable. Try to be kind to yourself and like others have said, lots of hugs with hubby tonight. xxx
I’m really sorry to hear this Orla. It’s just so heartbreaking when this happens and you feel completely helpless, as there is nothing you could have done yourself to change the outcome. Take care of yourself 💕 Xxx
Just wanted to reach out and send some love xxxxx 💕
I’m really sorry you are going through this again. I was so devasted at each one of my chemical pregnancies... what’s worse is the anticipation & the hope which is then snatched away. You can talk to your clinic about testing for next time, but not now... now it’s ok to be upset and to grieve and you should allow yourself time to do that, it’s part of the healing process. Sending you the biggest hugs xx
So sorry Orla, it is such a hard journey. Sending you lots of hugs and best wishes xxx
Can’t believe this cruel world
3 years ttc, no sign of a bfp, just can’t go on 
*sensitive* I can’t believe it!!!
Clear blue flashy smiley face
I can’t stop testing is this normal 🤣
