Anger

[Tranters]

Hi

I haven’t posted in a while. My Nan fell ill and died in December and after that nothing seemed important but just as I was starting to feel a little human my sister in law announces she’s pregnant - again!

Just to give you a background - I’m frantically trying to slim down so we can access IVF and my sister in law is 29 stone. My nephew has only just turned 7 months old ffs!! She’s a good Mum but the Dad is a total waste of space and doesn’t deserve one baby let alone two.

Last night when we found I went through a screaming phases, anger to eventually just breaking my heart. I fell asleep crying with my husband feeling just as shit holding me. I know fertility issues can break a couple but they have made us stronger. It’s just awful because my in laws who struggled with iVF themselves make a god of my sister in law and you would swear blind the only thing she can talk about is my nephew. You would think having gone through it herself she would a little more compassion and understanding. I just don’t know what the hug I did to the universe! When she announced she was pregnant last time I bought a big house as we only

Moved in October I feel safe to say I can’t do that again! Lol. But we planned to have a puppy in July when I’m off for the school hols so I am definitely going to make sure that happens.

Apologies for the long post but I feel horrendous at the minute.

Xx

[Hands2015]

Don't by apologise- omg it's sooo sooo hard I'm sorry your feeling horrible right now it's just a difficult situation to be in . Your not alone in feeling pure upset and anger when those around you are getting pregnant. I'm glad you and your husband have a strong relationship and the puppy sounds wonderful. I'm not great at giving support and advice I never know what to say but I just wanted you to know I totally hear you with what you have been experiencing and that you are not alone x x

[Tranters in reply to Hands2015]

Thank you so much I needed to hear that xx

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Dear Tranters I really feel for you and understand your pain implicitly. Losing your nan is so tough and heartbreaking and then while you’re in a loving relationship to bring up a baby in the best environment and so wanted other less appreciative folk are getting pregnant at the drop of a hat. I’ve been there so many times and felt that pain. It’s completely normal so don’t be so hard on yourself! You have to know in your heart that you will get your baby and you’re doing all the right things to make it happen and when your baby does come he or she will be so blessed to have 2 wonderful dedicated parents!! I’m pregnant at 45 after 6 v painful devastating losses, even my clinic told me to give up but we kept on trying and stayed strong because we have each other and even my Consultant said ‘well done for your perseverance’ so please don’t be hard on yourself but be quietly content that your time WILL come soon 🙏🏼😘xxx

[Autumnmoon]

Bless you hope the big cry helped a little sorry also that you lost your Nan hoping your dream comes true very soon x

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

What a horrible time you are having. Sending you lots of sympathy and love.