feeling deflated

[vic77]

just want to say thanks again to you all for your support over what has been the worst two weeks of our lives since we lost our precious baby at 12 weeks after 5 ivf attempts. life is slowly returning to normal which I am terrified of. we went to see our consultant today and she was lovely. no answers which I expected just bad luck..we seem to have plenty of that. one frostie left at 1bb..never understood grading..our baby was a 3bc so it's better in letters but not numbers..she didn't seem concerned. it will take a few months to try again as need another scratch and a holiday first I think to get some energy back. I am terrified of another miscarriage however I want to get behind our last frostie but it'seems so hard..thanks again all of you and stories of hope to hear me find mine most welcome..lots of love xxxxx

[Hidden]

Enjoy your holiday Hun. I'm the same as you & terrified of another miscarriage but we just have to be brave & pray good luck will be on our side. I hope your little frostie becomes your beautiful rainbow 🌈 baby. Wishing you all the best for the future xx

[vic77 in reply to Hidden]

thanks hun..I hope so too..am rooting for you xxxx

[Hidden in reply to vic77]

Thank you Vic 😘 xx

[elle80]

😘 Xx

[Hidden]

😗 Enjoy your much deserved holiday. I am rooting for your little embryo xx

[vic77 in reply to Hidden]

thanks hun xxxx

[Leo2017]

Enjoy your holiday Vic, and glad your follow up app’mnt went okay!! We don’t have ours for 3 wks yet!!

I’m like you the fear of going through the same again is overwhelming - but maybe, just maybe this could be our time!! 🤞🏻xx

[vic77 in reply to Leo2017]

we have to hope xxxxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Holiday is certainly what you need hun, your a fighter but you need time to heal and give your all to your embie, take your time and remember that recurrent miscarriage is rare it's common on here but it isn't that common according to the experts, I pray your embie is the one lovely your much needed rainbow 💝💝💝😘😘

[vic77 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

thanks so much hun...hope u doing ok xxxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to vic77]

💝💝😘

[RidleyNL]

So devastated for you, keep holding each other tight and know that you are super strong to have gone through all this and still be standing (even if it feels like only just). Sending a huge amount of love your way xxx

[vic77 in reply to RidleyNL]

yeah feel like am about to fall over but still standing. ..just...hope u OK xx

[Tugsgirl]

xx 😘

[NsKaz]

Absolutely gutted for u hun. Life is so unfair but u are stronger than u know. Sending u lots of love at this tough time. Xxxx

[vic77 in reply to NsKaz]

thanks xxx

[katya38]

So sorry for everything you ve been through. You can just take things 1 step at a time xx

[vic77 in reply to katya38]

thanks hun...hope you doing ok xxx

[katya38 in reply to vic77]

Yea not bad. Got a potential link met her sw monday justwaiting to hear if we ve been successful! Xx

[vic77 in reply to katya38]

omg that's amazing..fingers crossed this is your baby💜💜xxx

[katya38 in reply to vic77]

Thanks so much xx

[Penders]

Hi Vic a holiday is just what you need. That's what we have done, booked a holiday for the summer and we will go again for fet after that. I did my last two rounds back to back and I'm not sure it was a good idea 2 losses in 5 months is a lot to deal with. I have one embryo left its lower quality than the last two im terrified it will be another loss. So here's hoping that our last embies are the ones who make it. Hope you have a great time on holiday a week relaxing in the sun will do you the world of good. Xxx

[vic77 in reply to Penders]

thanks hun..hope u off somewhere lovely. ..that is so tough for you..we have to believe in those frosties I guess and be ready to face this all again...a few mojitos and some sun got to help 😉 much love to you xxx

[Penders in reply to vic77]

We are off to Greece looking forward to a week in the sun ☀️ xxx

[Cocoli]

Wish you and your partner the best. ❤️

[vic77 in reply to Cocoli]

thanks hun xxx

[WaywardGirl]

I can’t imagine how devastating that must have been. Sounds like you need a proper break - a holiday sounds like a really good plan. Hopefully you’ll come back physically and mentally refreshed and ready for the frostie to get on board xx

[vic77 in reply to WaywardGirl]

thank you...I hope so too xxx

[E_05]

I think a holiday is definitely a good idea! Just keep taking each day as it comes, you’ll know when your ready to start again. Thinking of you both xx

[romaluna2015]

I’m sorry to be reading this . I’ve not really been on here much.. thinking of you lots of love xx

[Dreamingofbaby]

Bless u not easy at all. Hope u have a nice holiday time for just u both a can be helpful. Best wishes to u xxx

[Drives]

A holiday sounds like it's just what you need to try and recharge. Take your time and sending lots of love x

[7AVA]

Your consultant sounds great Vic - sending lots of hope and support to you and your husband xxxx

[emu2016]

Sending you so much love. Take the time you both need x

[Lizzielizzielizzie]

💜

[Hidden]

Sending big hugs xxxxxx

[Hidden]

It’s truly devastating to miscarry and it’s taken me a very long time to be “ok” with the loss ( and mine was a very early loss) Horrific. “Bad luck” seems to be tossed about a lot with early pregnancy loss 🤦🏽‍♀️Remember it is such early days still don’t expect too much from yourself. A holiday sounds just the ticket. This isn’t the end; you will somehow find the strength to carry on , right now it doesn’t feel like , it but you are a very strong lady you must be to have gone through all you have , and the desire will keep you fighting 💝 have a lovely holiday ❤️ xoxo

[Noobs]

Sorry to hear this. Hope you have a lovely holiday and come back stronger.xx

[SnottyCow]

Hi Vic

So so sorry for your loss. I’ve had a few chemical pregnancies but 13 weeks is harsh. Totally normal and common but it just shouldn’t happen to us, it’s not fair after what we go through.

Numbers just mean stage of development. Some develop slower than others but that’s neither good or bad. I read an article about PGS testing recently that seemed to suggest that the slower developing embryos are usually girls..... but who knows. You’ve as much chance of getting pregnant with the 1bb as you did with the 3bc.

Wishing you the very best 💕

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry to hear of all that you have been through. Sending you huge hugs xxx

[Cinderella5]

Awww lovely to hear from you Vic! Sounds good that you've been back to see the consultant and although you havent an answers for losing you little one at least that is a big step out of the way. I think some time away together will be good for you both, allow you to gather some of your amazing strength back and also some more time to heal and grieve! Sending massive hugs.xxxx

[hopeforICSI]

vic77! loads of hugs and best wishes for your strength to embrace you tightly.

I can't stop myself replying you! Because I have been exactly where you are right now! I owe too much to all the ladies here because this forum is wonderful life support for this lonely journey. Having these feeling already, I can not just read your message and leave unanswered!

Look vic77! it is not the matter of grading of embryos! its just the time when it is going to happen for you. Do keep faith, strength, and hold on the rope of hope, Your time would be sooner.

I exactly had these feelings with my last embryo and I was simply not willing to trust the embryo transfer for my thoughts were this is the weakest of all frozen embies they did not survive how will this one go? I was just thinking of new cycle. We are blessed with a baby boy with that one. We never know which one is the stronger and fighter to make it to mum's day, mum's life, indeed!!!

I completely understand where you are right now! even perhaps what you are not saying, I am getting to know it from my own heart. I just want to tell you that miracles do happen. all you need is not losing hope, pull yourself up honey! you are a fighter and you never know this last one would be a fighter for life too!!!

I would never be able to return what I have received from this forum. This reply is a fraction of it. Love you all ladies. xx

[WeeMrsH]

You definitely need a rest Vic. The pain you are going through is truly awful. Biggest of hugs to you xx