Impatiently waiting

[WeeMrsH]

And so the phases of waiting begins. We are going for a donor egg FET in May. I am now (im)patiently waiting for my period to start, to then take the contraceptive pill for a couple of weeks to then wait for my period again, to then start Progynova...and so it continues. Except I’m not doing very well. Period not really due till Weds. I’ve had browny/old blood discharge since Sat. Cramps and backache on and off yesterday and today. Some spotting today too but just when I wipe. It’s annoying the hell out of me, because deep down - as this feels like the last chance saloon and I had my Endometriosis surgery in Dec hence in theory giving us a chance of natural conception - yes you know what I’m going to say... I am hoping deep down that I’m actually pregnant, when though just writing this down sounds so silly, and I know in my heart of hearts I wont be. Tears streaming cos with the feeling I have of pre-period symptoms I know this is the beginning of the end.

I’m also dying to get going with the next phase so I can get my treatment plan, and that obviously needs my period to come!! Complete contradiction in terms and a total head f**k as always.

And it’s Monday. **putsfaceinpalm**

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Ruddy Monday’s, who needs them!

Sweetness, you are completely normal to be frustrated by the lack of period; for waiting for treatment to start and for also having hope for you being pregnant. Both of which are understandable and normal.

The waiting game is a killer, it sets off most anxieties, plus you’re premenstrual 😬😬😬

I haven’t really any words of wisdom just that how your feeling is ok and on a personal note I feel reassured that it’s not just me feeling like that too 😘😘😘😘

[WeeMrsH]

Thank you hon!! Oh I know I’m by no means the only one who gets herself in these whirlwind thoughts, just feels like it when you can’t think of anything else, and nothing else matters at that point in time! Thanks for making me feel like less of a crazy 😜 xx

[emu2016]

I wish you’d bloody call me or something when you’re emotional. Just so I can tell you to come on warrior! You’ve been through so much worse than today. This is the beginning of a new chapter. One you’re ready to face with your lovely hubby and all of us here. Come on cycle buddy. We can do this xx

[WeeMrsH in reply to emu2016]

Love this 😘