I’m Leah and I’m 23 and I have 2 concerns which accidently came up in my life.
I’ve been dating with my boyfriend 3 years now. This is the most serious relations in my life. I don’t want to waste it.
My boyfriend, Dara, popped the question 2 months ago. I was stunned but said yes.
I don’t know what happened with him than…but…
First year of our relations was like a miracle. He was nice and kind to me. Back to those days I can see that I was just like a kitten, who trusted the first one who hedge me round with care and attention. But I was enjoin the moment. Please, understand me right, I’ve never loved someone so much as I love him. Nobody gave me such precious presents, as he did. Nobody wrote me poems for me, as he did.
He totally won over me.
Everything has change since we moved in.
We live together in his parents’ apartment. Though we started to sleep together each night, I still feel like we’re losing connection. He started to tell me that he had a lot of work to do, he is always busy, and then he “have to” hang out with mates. I can’t see that love and passion as it used to be. What really tears my heart that I think he can start cheating on me. Cos he also may notice that we became distant. I don’t know what can I do. My bbf in the situation which was close to divorce managed to save her marriage, cos she got pregnant.
I really would love to have a child with my Dara. So I tried to do it the way she did. I secretly stopped to take oral contraceptives. No success. What if it’s something genetic? I wouldn’t be so dramatic, if I hadn’t reason for concern. 5 months of regular bareback sex and still nothing. My periods are always on time.
I start to overthink. What if I won’t be able to have a baby? What kind of woman I am? I cannot get past the idea, that my cousin, Jenny had to adopt a baby, since she wasn’t able to conceive.
Now there are 2 biggest fears in my life
What if he will break up with me? How can I save our relations?
What if I am infertile? How to check it and what to do?