My life as of right now

[Alessia]

Hello everyone! How have you all been doing. I hope this find every single one of you fine. I am on my way to my mothers house rn... This trip was super long and I am bored now. As we are traveling with my DH, something that has been going through my mind is, my life right now. You see a lot of things have happened to me. If you have been following my posts, first of all thank you. Secondly you know what I am talking about. The weirdest thing however is life right now... Really I mean this. I have my uterus completely remove more than a month ago. Ever since my life has been completely different. My doctors told me that this will happen. You see, I lack the hormones Estrogen and Progesterone on my body. I don't have anymore sexual drive, and it is soooo weird like... Hormones are a really fascinating thing. To a certain level this is castration it just that I take some other pills which help a little.

[Alessia]

Part 2:

I don't know how to explain this. Ever since I got married I have felt sexual desires. Well who am I kidding I have felt them ever since I was a child. Never in a billion years would I imagined my life to turn like this. It's so weird to talk about it... Like I have never been a very sexaul person. Like I loved sex and all but I never daydreamed about what will I do to my DH tonight or stuff like that. Now though I never feel the urge to have sex like at all. At the other hand I am saving quite a lot of money that I used to spend on tampons! Damned things are as expensive as gold here :D. I have been having some headaches and I feel nervous for no reason. These however are minor side effects. The big ones are killing me. My mother told me that she knows how I feel... It was weird to hear that and I couldn't understand what she was talking about. Then she told me that I am basically going through menopause! So yeah, that is my life as of right now... Thank you all for being part of my journey. God bless you all!

[Fredaflintstone]

It’s so hard what you are going through Alessia. But you are so brave and I admire the way you remain positive. It will be hard to adjust but I know you will do it in a positive way. But always here of you need someone to talk to xxxxx

[Alessia in reply to Fredaflintstone]

Hello Freda! Thank you a lot dear. You are an amazing person dear. Honestly i dont know how can you manage this. I am so glad to have met you here... I am sorry if i am crossing my line here and getting too attached. I am. Just trying to show my appreciation towards your deeds. You have been a great support for me. I sincerely hope that your life is filled with happiness. Or at least gets so in the very near future. I know that all of us here have a story and its hard for all of us... But you never fail to support others. That is truly amazing my precious friend. I admire that beyond anything else. I want to be more like you in the future. Thank you again for the endless support, the caring and the motivation. God bless you dear, lots of love for you xoxox ❤️❤️

[Martinax]

I just read your story Alessia , and I'm full of admiration for you :you are so brave and strong. My husband and I have been going through a fertility journey for more than 2 years and it is nothing compared to what you are going through.

[Alessia in reply to Martinax]

Everybody has their story dear. I am really glad you think such of me... Its great to, at leas, be seen as a warrior. Thank you for words. They just made my day better. Your journey has been hard to. Maybe i dont know the details. Sometimes though you dont even need to know everything. Dealing with this abomination for 2 years... God do i have a great hunch on how you feel. You shouldn't give up no matter what though. Keep looking forward and hope for the absolute best. Believe me good things will happen to you. I know for a fact that after suffer comes relief. Lets hope that for the both of us. Gos bless you and your husband. I will be praying that you and your husband achieve your goal in no time. Lots of hugs and kisses dear xoxoxox

[Loopielu]

Sending you love and a massive hug lovely lady. xx

[Alessia in reply to Loopielu]

Hello dear friend. Hope youre doing fine! Thank you a lot for the love and hugs. The same applies to you. May god bless my precious friend. Your support has been amazing... Hugs and kisses dear xxoo

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Bless you hun. Sending you massive hugs. It's hard being a woman life throws some terrible things at us and we just don't understand why. The thing that keeps me going is the toughest ppl get the toughest tests. Your one strong lady. 💗🤗😘

[Alessia in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Hello to you too dear friend. Thanks for taking time out of your day to shoe some love. I am sorry for my late reply. I had a 3 days long sleepover at my mum's house. You are completely right on everything you've said. You know onenof the hardest things has been that dilemma... Why did this hit me? What wrong have i done that i have to suffer like this? Initially i used to think that i have some major sins... How else could you look at this whole situation? Now those thoughts are somewhat gone... Right now i tend to think about this whole thing as just destiny. I guess it made me tougher and whatever else... Thank you again dear for the comment. God bless you and your loved ones.

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Alessia]

Hello hunny.

I used to think like you hun even I suffered my first miscarriage I actually said at that point I was being punished. Then as iv grown older lost my father and grown wiser I know it's just how life is and we don't get thrown Any challenges that we can't cope with doesn't seem it at our lowest and most difficult times, we become stronger and sometimes even resilient to the future challenges we experience. I'm going to stay at my mums tonight. Take good care hun. Lots of love 💗🤗😘

[Alessia in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

You are right dear! I am sorry for your losses. For everything else too. Life is hard not matter what i guess! Thank you for the love and support again. Gos bless you dear. Got nothing but love for you...

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Alessia]

Bless you hun. Love for you too. Thank you Please pray for me that I don't loose this pregnancy iv got my first scan tomorrow to check it's not ectopic. 💗🤗😘

[Alessia in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

I will be praying with my whole might. I would love to be part of your achievement. You have been through a lot and you deserve this. Its only natural. Please update me on whatever happens. May Jesus help you succeed. God bless you with happiness!

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Alessia]

Thank you and you too although I'm a Muslim I still believe in Jesus and we all pray to the Almighty. Thank you I will keep you in my prayers too 💗🤗😘

[Alessia in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Different religions same God nahh? I am glad we can find a mutual language... God bless dear.

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Alessia]

If my holy book didn't exsist we'd have to follow the Bible. Same to me just call him different things. Bless you too. Keep strong 💗🤗😘

[Alessia in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

That's one heck of a way to put it... Never heard of this before. Anyway discussing religion would be wrong right now. You stay strong too! <3 <3 <3

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to Alessia]

💗🤗😘